i'm feeling lousy now because my mom likes to make a freaking big fuss outta something puny ): got scolded like shit, because i whined alittle just now D:

okays on a lighter note, the sky looks pretty today, i love that feeling when i was jogging downstairs just now :D pretty sky and omg, pretty sunset tooo. & i love the trees that makes it look as though i've got a forest at the back of my house. hahahahaha so funny. but yea. still remembered when i was young, like in primary school. i would look outta the window during rainy days, you know with thunderstorms and strong wind that goes " wooooo woooooo " okays, whatever, but yea you get the idea, and i always thought tht that particular tree will just collapse and topple over the building or something. i'd be so scared.
oh oh and i remembered how i used to thought tht an earthquake will occur and start to think about what's gonna happen when the buildings sway and th floor starts to vibrate. then we would all die because we live on the 9th storey. & one night, when i was in primary 5? there was a major earthquake at indonesia or smthing? i forgot, then my mom was like " OMG THE FLOOR IS SHAKING, THE BED IS SHAKING, EVERYTHING'S MOVING. GET OUTTA THE HOUSE " for once, that scared the shit outta me ): ! i was like " OMG I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT EARTHQUAKES THAT TIME AND NOW ITS REALLY HAPPENING, I DONT WANNA DIE ): " then we ran outta the house and got downstairs, to find tht we're not alone, somehow the whole neighbourhood felt the tremor . haha funny. and i got so worried tht my dad wanna go back into the house after awhile bcuse he needed the toilet. i was so afraid tht i would lose him because the building is gonna collapse ! D:
OH OH! and once i swallowed an orange seed i think.
and i thought i will die, because an orange tree is going to grow in my stomach!

- hahaha so funny. i was super naive and i think i still am, just that everything's kinda different and things arent that simple anymore.
its so weird how i can silly-ly believe everything tht some people said last time.
and how i got used by some people. but thank you, because you made me stronger
what happened 2 years ago was really something tht changed me i think.
( omgosh, i just finished a whole bunch of grapes >.< )
ANWS, throughout these years, i've been exposed to all sorts of people. and i realise that reality aint sweeeeet all the time. so i was living in my own world back then. i mean who doesnt like to live in their own fairytales -_- but still the real world is just so different, and sometimes the scariest thing isnt BUTTERFLIES BEEEETLES OR DRAGONFLIES, its us.
i dont know whats gonna happen in the future, but i know i'll try to make the best out of what i have. & i'm not gonna regret whatever decisions i've made.
i will try to be the besterest friend, at least i've tried.
jenny made me realise that sometimes you just have to look things at different perspectives and that you have to be true to yourself and everyone around you. GENUINE'S THE WORD <3
you are still my motivation, thank god for you. because every little things you do and say just make me smile. though somtimes i'm uncertain about some stuffs, sometimes i get swayed very easily not only by others but also myself. many times i wanna just forget about it and move on. but i realise i can't because you're not just anyone i know, you're not a random hi-bye friend, i dont know what you are, but something more than that. thats why i cant just erase you off my life, even if i want to. believe me, there are many times i wish i could do that. BUT i've been constantly reminded about how blessed and lucky i am. so i told myself that i shouldnt whine.. :D and be a happy girl. ^^ this is the reason why ...

i love you(s) !