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Friday, December 30, 2005
alrights
today was kinda a HIGH day for me..ya?
first was co,
crapped so much
practised sha di er, i don't know for what
then ordered macs...
stupid macdonald's person.
say wanna call me, in the end never call
asked estelli to call and order instead =after that,
SORRY KHANGLENG!
pangseh you..cause my bus came first mah
and 31 is VERY hard to come by you see..
haha
then headed for JY practice
guilty for not going metta, but yea..
mr RIT din go, but andy went!
oh ` and he spotted me there =x
OH NO
then crapped with andrea xiaole wenqi and co.
attempted to play "AIR MAHJONG", "AIR DAIDI"
andrea won the dai di..
as for the mahjong`
well, no one wins..
okie, told ya today is a CRAP day..
practice was alright..
kinda boring cause moses keep stopping
then samuel also over there stoning already
can't stop giggling..
partly cause of moses la..
the shirt he wear very funny =)
then i drink water until i chock!
i was like coughing all the way
FEELING REALLY BAD!
): uhuh
then keep laughing..
okie...really very HIGH..
then went home with NJC girl and xiaomei..
BUT SHE TOOK A CAB LA..
bad girl~ cab's are bad for health =]

enough of craps..
i really hope i'm coping well
of YOU-KNOW-WHAT
uhuh ):
still kinda saded la..
but wells,
one is better than two


Thursday, December 29, 2005

Once upon a time there lived a princess. Because she was extremely beautiful and wise, princes from all over the world came forward and asked for her hand. In the end, there were 5 princes left.

The princess could not make up her mind so she 'clenched her fist', leaving just a finger out. She would then marry the one who can guess correctly which finger that is.

* The first prince gave a stupid face and stuck up his thumb

* The 2nd prince happily stuck up his 2nd finger

* The 3rd gave a stupider face and showed his middle finger and got a slap

* The 4th faint after showing his 4th finger

AND finally the 5th one showed his little finger and the princess hooked it.

The prince and the princess lived happily. Therefore joined pinkies [last fingers] are then regarded as the vow of marriage which later become a symbol of promise

A few years later, the prince had to fight a war. Before leaving, he hooked the princess's pinky tightly and promised her he'll be back.

However after 10 years, there was still no news bout' him. Many princes came forward to ask for her hand again. She rejected repeatedly and finally she gave up and agreed to marry anyone who can hook her pinky finger.

Just then, a beggar came to look for the princess. The guards die die also refused to let him in but the princess say that everyone is equal and so she let him in. It was then she realised that was her lost prince.

The next morning when she woke up, she realised that the prince is gone. Truth is that the prince was killed on his way home and that day he returned to the palace was the 49th day after his death.

He returned with the pinky promise of " I'll be back ".

this is like so true, i got it from huangyi's blog..and i totally agree with she said "while a dead person is trying to keep his promise, the living one broke promises one after another" isn't this a sad thing? but sadly, it keeps happening in our everyday's life..

):




sad-ed cause dexin is leaving on monday ):
another nice nice senior leaving
really gonna miss the times we crapped(sec 2)
really gonna miss the times we said hi and bye in the CANTEEN
(don't ask me why in the canteen, but that's where i always see her)
i'm really gonna miss her daoo-ness haha!
okie, not exactly dao... =she's gonna kill me when she reads this..
alright, all in all
I'M JUST SAYING I'M GONNA MISS YOU!
(: smiles

alrights, back to topic
guess i'm leaving year 2007 XIS perhaps?
jenny (:
then continue uni in states?
since nini also studying psychology, yup
CAN'T WAIT!
right right?
gosh` really missed the time i crapped with jenny too
so yea, looking forward 2007


Wednesday, December 28, 2005
The rules ARE: You have to think of five random facts about yourself, THEN pick five people(with blogs). The five people you choose will be the people who have to list five random facts of themselves in their blog. You'll have to inform them that you've picked them so they will know ^^. Get it? Yes? Good-dexin

haha, so glad you remembered me (:
well, 5 random facts

-FIRSTLY, i get high really easily, and get low really easily, and get pissed of really easilly, i get sad really easily, angry really easily, basically i'm the tempremental kinda person =\ kinda a bad thing cause its my friends who suffer..and smtimes it gets really bad, but one thing to note! i get happy very easily too (:

-SECONDLY, simple things really make me smile, my face is kinda DAO-looking...so don't worry if i dao you, cause its kinda normal..but hey, everything's different once you get to know me..cause in fact, i'm not DAO at all alrights!

-THIRDLY, i simply can't live my life without MUSIC(beloved yangqin) only in music i can be who i wanna be..express the feelings that i wanna show..i find that through music, i learn more about life, reality everything

-FORTH-LY, i'm a easliy appleased person, really, just a simple "hi" n "bye" would make my day ^-^

-LASTLY, i treasure my friends alot, and i LOVEeach and everyone of them <3

thats all (:

i'm feeling down today,
can't play really well during practice
can't concentrate ):
i've told myself i got to forget
despite the thousand miles you have travelled..
i'm standing right at the same place
where we first met....
however, i'm glad i've got memories to keep me going
family matters, really bother me alot..
mymom, mymaid everything seems to be going another way =
NOT FEELING OKAY


Tuesday, December 27, 2005
one word
M I S E R A B L E
YOU,
you told me loads of stuffs, to break my heart
to accept someone else that i dont even like
to give up on you
i'm telling you now
i'm not gonna accept
because of many reasons
most importantly
i don't even have the slightest liking towards him
yes, he's nice BUT i feel the other way round
get it?
you said you encourage
but the way you put it
its like you're trying to tell me that
"HEY forget about me, he's better, he's more worthy than me, i'm just a nothing" the way you phrase everything makes it sounds as though i'm a something not SOMEONE..you're trying to "PUSH" me to someone
but, do you really know what's love?
i doubt you don't
or you'll never encourage me
that's all i have to say
disappointed

on the other hand,
that person
really sorry
but i cant i really cant
UNFAIR is the only word i could think of
truth is, i don't even like you
your attitude, everything
EVERYTHING get it?
sorry i have to be so harsh

to BOTH
what i'm trying to say is
this is a decision i made
and i will live with it with no regrets
perhaps i've hurt someone
but its better than breaking 2 hearts at a go isnt it?
this time, i wanna be alone, so just leave me alone
i'm sick and tired of these
you said i would be unhappy that person would be unhappy too..
YES, i would be unhappy sometimes...
but it has already been so many months..
i'm glad, really glad i've got friends i could talk to..
that's enough..well i mean alil bit of sadness here and there...
thats life
if i were to accept
i'm telling you
i would feel far worst than before
i won't be happy AT ALL
at least i'm happy now...
seeing you found something/someone in life..for the time being
its enough..

there's nothing i could say more,
perhaps
I'M-REALLY-SORRY
are the only 3 words that i could use to express what i'm feeling now

A L O N E
the best solution to problems


Sunday, December 25, 2005
WTH
make me cancel everything
then in the end joel's parents don't allow..
then call me last night...MIDNIGHT..say cannot go..
then can't go ..
today nothing to do...only sing sing sing
sian la..
BORING


Thursday, December 22, 2005
i think i know what to give for christmas already
but its gonna be really hard =uhuh~
stephanie come back soon
cause i don't know who to talk to already ):


Christmas is coming
and i haven got them their christmas present
there are just so many things to do
yet so little time
should i get smthing for you?
i don't know what to do
24th december - SENTOSA with xiao mei and benji and i dont' know who
25th december- probably with those few people?
its gonna be a sad sad sad christmas ):
cause i'm feeling really sad now, dont ask why
LIPING
SIEWGHIM
SHITONG
(BIYAN)
GEKHIANG
SOPHIA
MANHUA
XINHUAN
many many more (:
i really really miss you guys
when i'm reminising the times we had..
i felt so much to cry
those are my HAPPIEST HAPPIEST time
thanks for giving me those really WONDERFUL memories
thanks for leaving a footprint in my heart <3
thanks for being so TRUE
thanks, for EVERYTHING
6K, always

PRESENT , HOW?
i'm dead =\


prank prank prank
and if you think a prank is fun
slap yourself and wake up , P-LEASE
and if you think its funny
go ahead and BANG your head against the wall
you childish, irresponsible PRANKSTER
perhaps you have nothing better to do
FREAK- i hate you

hmmmm
alright back to topic
had co camp the past 2 days
night walk was -YAWNS-
glasses broke
end up wearing contacts ...
2nd day when i woke up my eyes was red, and it hurts
haha...
then went around without glasses throughout the day
was HORRIBLE
super tired
and i think the sec2s did well,
and i hope all miscommunications would be resolved
alrights
i'm feeling super DOWN
so yea, take care people

3 more days to christmas (:
-lonely christmas` uhuh


Monday, December 19, 2005
alrights,
went to school today to play night walk
=\ was quite sian until the very end
when i got very high
haha..yup
its gonna be FUN
right?
jiayou people!
make it the most irritating night walk EVER (:
haha..then bought stuffs with fred and xiao mei
haha, looked for minSPACEru too
like that lohs,
then went home
tired ):

# i miss you


Saturday, December 17, 2005
yesterday (:
JINGYING!
haha, was quite boring actually
lin yi conducted us la..
cause the erhus have to go and practice their songs...
bleahs..
BORING BORING BORING
after that, being a mr nice guy
junyang sent me home
not knowing tht the cab's gonna cost a BOMB
haha~ sorry sorry

today (:
performance
kinda fun la
played percussion what..haha
diao ca, xiao ca and tamborine
haha..
longteng was HORRIBLY HORRIBLE
yang bian, managed to HUN my way through
by helping tingkai ban zou using the tamborine =\
sounded okay alrights!
THRID..SO MA LU LA
LAST MINUTE ASK ME GO AND PLAY SOLO
" XI XUN" haha!
wasnt really confident initially
was okay in the end,
din make any BIG MISTAKE UNLIKE THT TIME AT HERITAGE
but the mike was horrible
haha..joel said smthing nice (:
head's growing bigger!
haha..
hua hao was as usual
haha..
"you gay, i ga, everybody's gay"
tu di and yuan yang were so cute today
exceptionally
ha!
yea..had a great time crapping
all in all
- FUN (:


Tuesday, December 13, 2005
tmr's the chalet
and beekwee's campus superstar!

was a crazy and hectic day today
really really fun!
went out with GECO people
get to bond with the others
wanhua,junkai,junyang,xiaomei,xiaole,wenqi,andrea the other 2 girls i dont know the name!
SORRY ):
but yea..everyone was great..shouted real loud for YUNYING!
she did great..haha..
and our BANNERS AND CARDBOARDS were nice(on screen) (:
however reality it isnt really tht nice..haha
there's this really cute guy that sat behind..haha x)
looks like EDISON CHEN !
haha...haha...yup yup
after tht xiaole's dad sent me to yishun mrt then went home le

nothing much...
tmr's gonna be another crazy day..
meeting jiaqing at 9.30AM woodlands mrt....
going J8 to meet up with the others..haha

at least those craziness make me forget whats bothering me alot alot..
thanks!

alrights..
miss me for the next 2 days

#peace out!


Sunday, December 11, 2005
performance today
was alright, just abit boring, teeny winey bit
think im a gone case already
suffering from depression again ):
you know you know~ uhuh
thought alot yesterday
- alot as in more than usual
yup, its reallly miserable alrights
DO YOU KNOW? doubt you dont even give a freaking damn
maybe jealousy is getting over me =i don't know
tried to hate you, succeeded for 1 hour+ and FAILED the next
i still cant forget ):
how much it hurts to see how you "ignored" me
looking as though you don't know me and go oh-we're strangers~
you know how much it hurts to see you with OTHERS
while me stoneing somewhere?
you know how much it hurts when you NEVER seem to care
perhaps all in all, you DON'T
felt like a fool, asking you to take care and stuffs when you don't even bother
maybe youre just taking me for granted
felt even more like a fool when i got so worried when you're sick
but you never seem to care..
i don't know its just different...
but somehow deep down inside, i assure you tht that LOVE still exist
-maybe you have even forgotten what actually happened, what are the words tht you have told me, those times we shared..perhaps you've forgotten..at least you could, but i'm still stuck here..tired but failed..
perhaps people tell me that you're so not good...tht makes me hate you for 1 sec..but soon, tht hate becums double the love...really really
time really flies ):
O levels next year, perhaps, studies first...i don't know, we'll see
but yea, don't worry i know my priorities, its not gonna affect me


sad-ed post
):


Friday, December 09, 2005
don't know why but today i felt abit abit
sad- just abit
maybe alot? i don't know
alright went zhiwen's house to do posters for BK
haha (: was super funny !
quite fun...
but my WU GUI! ): hmph!
haha..they chao(2) xiao(4) my wu gui
nothing much then went metta for practice
haha..BORING =\
someone was SICK..
so yea, boring
after tht actually wanna buy smthing to eat for someone..
but tht someone don't want..
dumb pig ! sick already still don't wanna eat yr dinner
haha..still feeling abit sad..
actually din really wanna give a damn about someone
yes yes` i really did alright !
but to no avail...
started to worry when i found out someone sick ...
then ate with huangyi and ho gian? haha..yup..
as usual, huangyi gay-ed us AGAIN..haha (:
but mao mao wasnt with us today..
SI BEN with tht girl la =\
haha..dumb dumb
took cab AGAIN

JINGYING TMR!
sad, yishan all not COMING ):
sian sian, haha..

alrights
# peace out!
hehe


don't know why but today i felt abit abit
sad- just abit
maybe alot? i don't know
alright went zhiwen's house to do posters for BK
haha (: was super funny !
quite fun...
but my WU GUI! ): hmph!
haha..they chao(2) xiao(4) my wu gui
nothing much then went metta for practice
haha..BORING =\
someone was SICK..
so yea, boring
after tht actually wanna buy smthing to eat for someone..
but tht someone don't want..
dumb pig ! sick already still don't wanna eat yr dinner
haha..still feeling abit sad..
actually din really wanna give a damn about someone
yes yes` i really did alright !
but to no avail...
started to worry when i found out someone sick ...
then ate with huangyi and ho gian? haha..yup..
as usual, huangyi gay-ed us AGAIN..haha (:
but mao mao wasnt with us today..
SI BEN with tht girl la =\
haha..dumb dumb
took cab AGAIN

JINGYING TMR!
sad, yishan all not COMING ):
sian sian, haha..

alrights
# peace out!
hehe


don't know why but today i felt abit abit
sad- just abit
maybe alot? i don't know
alright went zhiwen's house to do posters for BK
haha (: was super funny !
quite fun...
but my WU GUI! ): hmph!
haha..they chao(2) xiao(4) my wu gui
nothing much then went metta for practice
haha..BORING =\
someone was SICK..
so yea, boring
after tht actually wanna buy smthing to eat for someone..
but tht someone don't want..
dumb pig ! sick already still don't wanna eat yr dinner
haha..still feeling abit sad..
actually din really wanna give a damn about someone
yes yes` i really did alright !
but to no avail...
started to worry when i found out someone sick ...
then ate with huangyi and ho gian? haha..yup..
as usual, huangyi gay-ed us AGAIN..haha (:
but mao mao wasnt with us today..
SI BEN with tht girl la =\
haha..dumb dumb
took cab AGAIN

JINGYING TMR!
sad, yishan all not COMING ):
sian sian, haha..

alrights
# peace out!
hehe


don't know why but today i felt abit abit
sad- just abit
maybe alot? i don't know
alright went zhiwen's house to do posters for BK
haha (: was super funny !
quite fun...
but my WU GUI! ): hmph!
haha..they chao(2) xiao(4) my wu gui
nothing much then went metta for practice
haha..BORING =\
someone was SICK..
so yea, boring
after tht actually wanna buy smthing to eat for someone..
but tht someone don't want..
dumb pig ! sick already still don't wanna eat yr dinner
haha..still feeling abit sad..
actually din really wanna give a damn about someone
yes yes` i really did alright !
but to no avail...
started to worry when i found out someone sick ...
then ate with huangyi and ho gian? haha..yup..
as usual, huangyi gay-ed us AGAIN..haha (:
but mao mao wasnt with us today..
SI BEN with tht girl la =\
haha..dumb dumb
took cab AGAIN

JINGYING TMR!
sad, yishan all not COMING ):
sian sian, haha..

alrights
# peace out!
hehe


don't know why but today i felt abit abit
sad- just abit
maybe alot? i don't know
alright went zhiwen's house to do posters for BK
haha (: was super funny !
quite fun...
but my WU GUI! ): hmph!
haha..they chao(2) xiao(4) my wu gui
nothing much then went metta for practice
haha..BORING =\
someone was SICK..
so yea, boring
after tht actually wanna buy smthing to eat for someone..
but tht someone don't want..
dumb pig ! sick already still don't wanna eat yr dinner
haha..still feeling abit sad..
actually din really wanna give a damn about someone
yes yes` i really did alright !
but to no avail...
started to worry when i found out someone sick ...
then ate with huangyi and ho gian? haha..yup..
as usual, huangyi gay-ed us AGAIN..haha (:
but mao mao wasnt with us today..
SI BEN with tht girl la =\
haha..dumb dumb
took cab AGAIN

JINGYING TMR!
sad, yishan all not COMING ):
sian sian, haha..

alrights
# peace out!
hehe


Tuesday, December 06, 2005
A BORING DAY WITH A BORING START
6.30 then got practice at metta
flying all the way to simei again
=\ LAZY TO GO HOME!
i broke my necklace *sob*
thts why i wore tht metal thing instead of my chain la..
cause i BROKE IT ...
sigh ):
uhuh- its really boring
and i don't know what to do...
din really have a nice sleep yesterday
had a nightmare on GHOST..
was really scary i swear~
then i woke up, 1 missed call..
then i slp again..
somehow couldnt really get to sleep...
tht dumb idiot just don't know how to take care of himself
=\ REMEMBER TO EAT YOUR BREAKFAST LUNCH DINNER alrights..
tsk tsk..haha
i wanna go ice skating (:
anyone?

okie people
#peace out!


Monday, December 05, 2005
guilty
-of scolding/ticking off haosheng...
-of my DA XIAO JIE PI QI
yes yes` but he really really piss me off
but yea, its alright in the end
resulted to my lonliness for hours in metta
BOOOoOo I HATE lonliness...
very scary`
ALONE there..yucks >.<
drew 2 stuffs, uhuh (:

smtimes i don't know,
no matter how angry i am with him
no matter how dumb he act
no matter how sickeningly idiotic he is
somehow...just somehow...hmmmmm
haha alrights...sprouting nonsense again

now i got a god-mom
and a god sis - zhiwen!
of course not forgetting my xiao mei
and my MIN RU jie

(: i love them all


monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday
ALL PRACTICE, well except i'm poning friday's one for JINGYING ^-^
yup yup, missing the people there already
sian - been reaching home VERY LATE...like 12am
): cause of tht thing..
tiring...so inconsiderate la! so late...hmph...no CAB SOMEMORE..cause its gonna cost a BOMB..midnight surcharge and stuffs, you know you know..
but yea, its alright, been quite used to going home alone at night already. somehow boring...smtimes i hope i could just stay overnight there....tht wld save loads of precious TIME la...haha

okie people,
# peace out!


Friday, December 02, 2005
PLAIN CRAP
UNFAIR
POINTLESS
okay
i admit..i really played LOUSY for kao ji
really..and i got a distinction?
like hello? knock knock..
i really intended to retake..
i told my teacher already..cause i find it really bad
floping Almost ALL my kuai ban..
but miraculously my lun ying was alright (:
this time theres alot ALOT of people getting distinction..
must be cause of the prize presentation..
if only a few people get ..then HOW TO HAVE PRESENTATION?
so dumb right..
its super unfair too..
cause CENHUI PLAYED WELL ALRIGHT.
and she din get distinction..BOOHOOO
blahs~
i don't like kao ji this year..
last year was better =\
really

-stayed overnight at yunyun and cenhui's hse..(tinghui came along too)
was very VERY fun (:
haha...played until like 230am?
cooked night supper
played daidi , somehow the biggest 2 always ends up with me eh? xp
played "HEY-THATS-MY-BED" game.. -.-
TABOO (: SUPER FUNNY " SUGARY SALTY?!" - quoted from yunyun
alrights tht was LAME.
played "LIFE", "CLUDO"
alright yesterday was the best sleepover ever..
cause for ONCE i've stayed over there without having to worry about tmr.
and also wake up early (:
so yea` its really fun
haha

and yea
# i love each and every one of them too <3
alrights..I LOVE MINRU too ^-^

Sureeporn Ho YiQing♥
seventeeeeeen
i love the music & the SUN, omgosh! BEACH!
" Dear god, please make this world a happier place. Amen"
cause you are special, everyone is special, everyone in his or her own way :D
i'll love all who loves me too! :D


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