This Love/ <3

Wednesday, January 31, 2007
waiting for my american idol, i hope there's extreme makeover D: !
thailand VS singapore, sis and bro watching ...

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the flag raising i missed ; national ath. + school song + pledge everyday :D

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the class i missed ; 34 girls 6 guys 1 class 1 love
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the fun i missed ; @ sentosa after prelims

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pretty babes @ hilton ; PROM NIGHT 2006

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i still remembered 21/04/05
when we were disappointed, joel clarence and some others photoshopped this picture
to make us feel better -__-
so cute ^^
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aiya, okays camwhored
xiuli's phone, before the MATH paper !
at Singapore Post's KFC :D

SO BORED, WHEN IS AMERICAN IDOL STARTING? BLAHS D:


i'm back from running & rehearsal !
so the most dreaded day this week is over :D i'm so haaappy !
last night i was quite affected by some things i chanced upon while blog hopping
- my itchy hands and curiousity D:
which made me realised how sad it is, that life is so fragile
you'll never realise how fragile it is until u lose someone close to you
like one moment you may be happily talking to him/her, the next day, he/she's gone
it will be pretty sad if you never got the chance to say " i love you " to that person
it will be pretty sad if you guys had a conflict the day before and never got the chance to say " i'm sorry "
i guess its rather hard to "LIVE LIKE THERE'S NO TMR" isnt it?
wait, its not really hard, but tiring.
so if anything happens to me tmr D: or the building just collapse(not being a sadist)
i just wanna say, I LOVE YOU & YOU & YOU! :D
- BIG HUG! -

right, on a happier note TMR'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR THE WEEK
how nice :D are you jealous are you jealous? HEHE
friday there's geco! oh and movie! yes yes i remember
can't believe i'm so kind , right? RIGHT


Tuesday, January 30, 2007
so , i think i can't breathe the proper way when i'm running D:
which is bad, cause it resulted to the PAIN around my chest area
its quite bad la, so even if i have the stamina to continue running, i couldnt because the pain was quite unbearable. dont know what's happening, just hope tht it will not happen the nxt time i run again. no wonder jere say why i always sick, weak man! hahahahhahaha
nah, i'll be stronger :D
go bathe liao, feel like a dirty girl

say, OINK !


today's a tiring day
was sleeeeepy after lunch break, so i was so close to lala-land during biology just now
school's quite boring though, nothing much to update about
OMG tmr's wednesday, suppose t meet dx for practice, i dont wanna go la D: D: D:
really really truly dont wanna go . but i guess i have the responsibility to do so
MEGA bored now, feel like sleeping, but i'm suppose to like, go for my jog now
i love the song at jesslyn aunty's blog ! :D
anyway, on a happpier thought, tmr's wednesday, thursday, then FRIDAY and weekends!
so fast! yays =)

a pretty lovely song


" All these precious moments,
With you by my side.
Must be a gift from heaven,
That’s holding me all night.
I dont know how i found you,
I'm thankful that i have.
That i have a love so true,
To hold, to keep, to share.
In my heart,
I can no longer hold inside.
All of the love i used to hide.
I'd always be with you until the very end.
In this world,
there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life my soul, my world.
And through it all, i know you'll come to see.
That you're the one, till the end.
All my friends around me,
Say you'll be gone too soon.
Baby, i'm gona make them see,
We've found our way back home.
In my heart,
I can no longer hold inside.
All of the love i used to hide.
I'd always be with you until the very end.
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life my soul, my world.
And through it all, i know you'll come to see.
That you're the one, till the end.
We'll always be, till the end. "
-got this from jesslyn's blog.


Monday, January 29, 2007
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this is my class ! 0731B
guess i'm stucked with you guys for 1st 3 months eh.
but i'm rather glad to have them as my classmates, at least they're nice
i remembered entering this class cause i was transferred from another group.
well, i've learnt alot from them too, especially from the malays hahahahahahhaa :D
they have pretty cool etiquettes you know!
has been a month already, you guys never failed to make my day!

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as you can infer, we have only ONE GUY, but he's nice ( CHEERLEADER ) alrights
see, i got cool classmates ! =)
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FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THE DAY !
hehe faj me and amanda
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the irritating atiqah, but i loved her so :D !
yays

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random picture, I LOVE MY NECKLACE!
i remembered asking people to say ''goodluck'' to it D:
thats pretty lame, but yea it has become part of my strength for the Os and also the competition
hehe

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& say hello to --- I DONT KNOW cause i havent name it yet
but i bought it cause it looks retarded enough to make me smile :D
pffts, name, anyone?


talking to darling taniaseow now D:
she's making me emo too, hehe silly junior
aww and she's one sweety :P
SYF's like in 2 months time? i hope all of my juniors will buck up
and sense the urgency, i really hopt to be there to share the tears of joy
i'll really be proud of you guys whether its GOLD/GWH
as long as you touch the audience with your music, its sincerity tht truly counts
however we have to be really realistic, cause techniques also count
practice hard dear little juniors, we'll be praying for y`all :D

love,
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to irritate you guys further, a picture of yours truly =P


i'm back home :D
morning was cold cold cold !
anyway, i was late for the early bird programme ( ''punishment'' for being late for sch on friday)
was suppose to run 6 rounds, but i told them i was sick, th teacher was like.
"OKAY, go pick up all the rubbish in the canteen" <--ultra malu to b the only one picking rubbish in th whole canteen okays.
then after tht he asked me to WALK 3 rounds :(
so horrible! anyway, lesson's boring today 3 periods of GP D:
but had 2 hours of BREAK.
after school met meixuan at westmall, caught ghost tunnel.
oh tht girl tht starred in one litre of tears was th main character :D prettaye
the movie was, typical, sound effect was scary but other than tht it wasnt really scary
and we laughed at some parts, okay maybe only me.
and mx scared me 2 TIMES throughout the movie D:
if i were to name something scary after the movie, it wasnt the ghost .
it was meixuan okays!
hehe, I BOUGHT CHOCOLATE TARTS and ate the TART but not the chocolate -__-
going t jog now :D bye all


Sunday, January 28, 2007
HEY! check out www.lucylooandbettyboo.blogspot.com
ultra cool :D full of rubbish ! haha
:D


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PRETTY SCHOOL :D :D :D :D!!


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pictures me and ly took when we were suppose to "audition" our juniors .

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harmony06 :D during our outings-




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cchmsco !


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lastly to end this off, hahahahahahahahahhahahaa
when i was bored ( what to do ! D: ) hehe. bye!


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i miss my classmates D:


Saturday, January 27, 2007
edit/
oh i decided not to take my diploma this year.
cause i realised some stuffs and talking to my teacher helped
its not the gradings tht really determine how good you are. though some would say tht, but i beg to differ, or perhaps its just my opinion.
cause i realised people are just practicing for the sake of gradings and competitions.
haha, my teacher came up with this and he said tht we shouldnt be thinking of eating fast food everyday, because its bad for health
similarly, we cannot really take short cuts in music.
everytime we want to learn big pieces. yet we often neglect our ji ben gong.
so my teacher said, dont think of having sumptious meal like " BIG FISH BIG MEAT" (in chinese) everyday. hehe.
cause we'll suffer from indigestion.
so sometimes we should learn pieces of different style.
from there you might learn some new stuffs.
anyway, music is pretty amazing :D
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ITS ALREADY SATURDAY D:
and i have to start counting down to next friday all over again!
pretty no life, but apparently fridays and weekends are th only days i look forward to currently
went back to cchmsco tday, was rotting. but i'm still happy to see my juniors again
which somehow made me feel old there, nontheless! LY TINGKAI ZHUOYI were there to share the....OLD-NESS with me ! :D miss those bunch of people so much !
after co went to parkway to accompany those juniors for lunch, they had mac but me and ly didnt wanna have macs laa, unhealthy D: so we went to suntec t have subway instead.
hehe, then we were gossiping until i realised i was gonnna be late for lesson
so rushed rushed rushed, until laoshi msgd me and said tht he will be late too -_-
upon reaching, haosong was already having lesson . blahs
so i had to wait.
i'm learning xiao yue er gao now. its a small piece but every note has its own emotion, tone, texture etc. its a pretty cool piece. =D
got a new qin zhu, i love the bouncy-ness of it :D:D:D:D:D!
then laoshi lent me this small book on contemporary music, IN CHINESE -__------
had a nose bleed just now, horrible horrible, i hate having nose bleed D: D:

so i think i'm having my PMS laa
somehow i'm having my low tides now and then, and really sorry to those tht have to bear with my low tides, sometimes its quite horrible. (I KNOW)
but you know me, i'll get over it real soon when someone cheers me up by doing stupid stuffs
OH and ROCKY ROAD, yums . :D
OR MAYBE, its just me feeling tired and stuffs.
i hope i'll get high soon ! and i hope everyone tht's feeling low now will cheer up too

" Dear god, please make this world a happier place. Amen "
( prayed sincere-eeestly & truly )
god bless!


good news : i did not do horrible PE today :D
bad news : i was late for school, super horrible D: you know it was raining and i had to walk across this MUDDY field until i reach the main gate of the school. and i didnt bring my umbrella
so after school i went back home ot bathe, cause my hair felt waxy , gosh la its super disgusting
then met xueqi at buona vista . walked to acjc
it was super hot and i was bringing this ''PRETTY UMBRELLA'' <-- you better agree its pretty
haha. so i was whining , malu-ed myself by opening the ''pretty umbrella'' while walking
when it wasnt raining and the sun wasnt scorching hot
but i still felt HOT D:
so jere should thank us for walking there, we're nice and kind people
headed for bugis after tht .
on the train was super high la, kept laughing and laughing, XUEQI LA . cant believe i'm out with 2 crazy people, madness
haha jere was trying to say this joke ...
jere " there was once, this man who lost his hand ..."
UNKOWN GIRL WEARING GREEN SHIRT " ....... " she said something i kinda forgot
but it was super funny, so qi & i were laughing so bad tht my duodenum hurts D:!
but jeremy didnt know what we were laughing at until we told him later :p
you , I WANT THE BADGE ! :D :D :D :D :D !
i guess i was on sugar rush, but later i became super stoney and started to drift away
must be the sugar =x

geco was overpopulated tday, hehe alot of people.
had fun ! going back cchmsco tmr again. nice senior, yeaa :D

something about you, words can't explain-


Friday, January 26, 2007
so bored D: i'm still awake, finished my econs tutorial :D basically just crapped my way through
anyway, we came up with a new theory!
people tht play sitting-instruments can afford to be lame
because it will not affect their playings ( eg. yangqin, pipa :D)
say, I LOVE RUBBISH !& welcome to our rubbishy-rubbish-full-of-crap society
to welcome you, there will be an official tea ceremony
whereby the tea will be poured literally ON YOU ( its called the cleansing ceremony too )
to check for aligibility please open your mouth wide, if it stinks of crabs and rubbishsssss, then yes! you're definitely full of crap and rubbish, otherwise, you're not qualified =D


Thursday, January 25, 2007
suppose to finish econs hw, left with case studies
suppose to finish maths tutorial, haven touch it D:
i'm so screwed ! and tmr i'm gonnna have a hard time explaining my absense from xcountry on wednesday, dangs! i dont wanna run like 8 rounds tmr, i'm still sick, argh now going to school is a torture!
it was freezing today, i totally turned off during econs lecture
i know i shouldnt but i'm gonna drop h2econs for h2lit! i wanna take literature!
then during GP today, mrs soo was picking on me
cause she said, " sureeporn ... "
then i was like " HI! " ( wasn't paying attention and i didnt mean to say HI ! "
mrs sooo " i'm not your friend blah blah blah.. "
so i went " HELLLO ! " ( thought of myself ) " OH SHIT "
mrs soo " refrain from using the 4 letter word "
me " OH, HERE! "
- the above are just the procedures of marking MY attendence -
and i guess it was quite obvious tht i was doodling, so she kinda ticked me off
asked me what i was drawing, so i said " oh, something to do with theft "
cause theft and crime was the topic she was discussing
so she said " SO YOU'RE DRAWING GUNS AND KNIVES? "
i was like NO. alright, i was drawing nonsense. so tht she doesnt ask me to show the whole class what i was drawing since it was related to the lesson. D:
i've got a pretty ''interesting'' GP teacher .
oh! and u know what, cause some of our classmates wasnt looking at her when she was talking, i swear she was PRETENDING to talk to the air around her for around 10 mins !!

after school met meixuan :D
i'm so ooooonz , watched ''happy birthday'' with her
quite a sad movie, but it was typical. read this story online before
but still, SAD D: !!
louiskoo is VERY hot
haha, went bugis streeet . apparently, MY CHEERY DRESS IS GOOONe
only left with tht BLUEBERRY ONE D:
then i went home, was super bored
and meixuan made me laugh like a retard when i was all alone
i had to call her when she was just opposite me so tht i wont feel stupid
cant see her cause she was blocked by the people D: !

today's a very boring day
tmr will be a boring school day. cause i didnt finish my homework
and there's horrible PE tmr, people please pray for me
meeting jere and xueqi tmr! :D yays

right, gonna do my econs case study now and off to lala land - oh and write my LETTER to the pe department and CT. i hate schooool . horrible horrible horrible.

bye!


LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO PERFORM IN A NEW YEAR GIG?
LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WITH EXPERIENCE?
thats right, you've found the right place

YIQING HAS EXPERIENCES & EVERTHING U NEED!
SHE KNOWS HOW TO PLAY THE HIGHLY REKNOWN SONG BOTH IN ''WESTERN AND CHINESE MUSIC ARENA ''
--XIAO XING XING A.K.A SMALL STAR STAR ! ( 58097502 TIMES HARDER THAN A DIPLOMA PIECE )
which has to be the MOST difficult song in this era.
playing in A/B/C/D/E/F DIAOS, this piece is in fact......HARD
her very first encore piece, SMALL STAR STAR
will be showcased in -- yiqinghahaha.omg.com
feel free to take a loook at it, because you'll be awed and amazed by her.. uh TALENTS
her famous pice has to be SILENT NIGHT
where everyone was awed by the SILENCE!
:D

haha xueqi wants one resume too =p
XUEQI, has the passion and commitment in everything tht she does
the NEVER SAY DIE attitude attributes to her success!
looking for someone who is talented in the pipa?
she's sure the one, the piece that made her famous was the ALL TIME FAVOURITE
-- LU YAO, also known as, GREEN WAIST
she's well known for wearing a green belt around her waist while playing GREEN WAIST
and her playing is SO WOW, tht her GREEN BELT GLOWED when she first performed this piece at SPauditorium which blinded everyone!
her fingers are so fast tht you cant even see it moves!
she's GREAT!
SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?
snatch it while its HOT!


- the above facts, are actuallly, un-true, and 100% made up.
formed 99% from air 1% crap

hehe, RIGHT i'm SO HIGH NOW
so started crapping, gosh la D: i sld be sleeping
oh wells =P
love all <3


Wednesday, January 24, 2007
hey !
woke up at 650am, fell asleep again at 720am
didn't go for xcountry tday, but i heard jemimah got 1st out of all the J1 N J2 !
yays, proud of her ! haha :D
so afternoon went to meet joane at NYNY
cause esther and rachel were with her having lunch there
after tht went to ESPLANADE, ended up at MRS FIELDS, had my all time favourite ROCKYROAD :D yums!
did some work there, oh i love the ambience so gonna go there to study again hehe.
taught joane some statistic stuffs, well cldnt teach much cause i forgot some stuffs too =x
dont know why they dont like toh layhoon, cause she's super duper ultra nice and the harmonians loved her soo much !
hmmms, journey home was as usual. BORING D: hate going home alone, but kinda used to it
so well, just whining laaaaa =p
xueqi went to practice, and now i'm so bored D: D: D:
watched american idol, super funny i tell you ! gonna watch xtreme makeover later
yays! its already wednesday, looking forward to friday and weekendsssss

- you gave me all the reasons in the world to smile :D
bye peoplesssss , haha


Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I LOVE LEONA ! :D :D :D
she has this magical voice, i'm not kidding and her personality, great
i'm gonna get her CD ! if i can find it in singapore that is.
school's having some xcrountry thing tmr, so i dont think i'm going
bcause i'm having this really bad cough and flu, and i dont wanna die running in the forest
was quite worried when i started thinking about my results and how i did for O levels
because i cant remember anything except those tht i made mistake D:
right, i should stop thinking about it!!!!!!!
i still love leona!!!

is it really that hard to be down to earth?
why does it seem to me that everyone's putting on a facade
but i still love my friends :D
they just make my world go round and round and round and round .
at least life isnt' boring with them around !

so, to....
everyone thts sad, please be happy
everyone thts happpy , YAYNESS
everyone thts feeling weak, stay strong
everyone thts hurt, have faith -i'll pray
everyone thts sick, take care
everyone thts tearing, smile
everyone tht i love, HUGS!


Monday, January 22, 2007
HELLO! i finished my geog and bio assignments :D
proud of my population comic. though its abit racist, i'm not really a racist ! really ! no offence
but here goes, the world started with 3 people of different races, namely, malay chinese indian
soon they got married and gave birth to children, the malay had 3 children, chinese had 1, indian had 5! . the chinese started to work and got really career minded, while the indian and malay gave birth to more children! 100 years later, ( this is not in my comic or it'd be tooo racist i think) the world is in darkness, because the earth will be occupied by malays and indians, the chinese? working....
moral of the story, keep replacement level at 2.1< so tht the world can be a better place. do not use career as an excuse for famly can give you happiness, something money cant buy (:
somthing like tht. hehe
suckd at drawing, so i used STICKMANS instead . but hey i finished!
argh, but tmr i'm suppose to finish ECONS tutorial D:
so horrible. but i just remember, CROSS COUNTRY ON WED, SO NO ECONS TUT!
yays! :D thank god!
today's quite boring, with a break from 910-1110 D:
SUPER ULTRA BORING, talked to chuanmin today ! hehe
oh and bernice, we were ''writing'' uhuh during GP!
so the teacher was like " the 3 other people infront, i dont see the rest of you taking notes and its quite distracting......" smthing like tht. because bernice and i were busy scribbling on the paper. we look super hardworking but we were not even paying attention -_-
SMART :D ! !
after school, went home ate junk food again!
i hope i'm still sick until wednesday!
cant wait for friday and weekends.. argh! D:
life's so boring now.


Sunday, January 21, 2007
i know its abit early for a birthday wishlist.
but you know what.
I WANT A CD WITH ALL OF BARNEY'S SONGS IN IT !
i love barney and i dont know why some people hates it and says barney's gay D:
right, ppl wil be like, why barney? oh so childish-
its not chldish cause its so hard to find songs which are TRUE and STRIAGHTFORWARD nowadays, when i listen to barney songs, it just came to me how we're living in lies and how we're living in each other's stage-play and how we're actually living in a puzzle itself
so i thought, why cant we be like " i love you, you love me, we are happy family"
as simple as that, is it really that hard? i guess so in this world we're living in
people dont show their true feelings, otherwise, living in facade.
or like what xueqi said " PUTTING ON MASK"
i love barney songs, though its short, but simple and true.
thats all


booooooring day D:
woke up, stared at the television, watched i shouldnt be alive AGAIN
then mom and dad decided to go soup restaurant for lunch
so yea, went to causeway point. lunch was alright
- next went to thomson road to get flower pot . haha
- home
was feeling not-so-well just now D:
oh! and i dyed my hair, it's suppse to be LESS obvious. i'm a good girl okays
just that i'm just super duper lazy to dye it since sch reopens
anyway i really cant stand th colour of my hair since like dont know when
cause its giving me that, you-know-what-look which is ..... ya you know
& my hair stinks now, HYDROGEN PEROXIDE. dangs cause of the DIY dye
today, i feel sick. which is good cause i'm suppose to be like tht until wednesday
but nontheless i'm still going back to school tmr no matter how much i dread it

sometimes i wonder, what lies ahead
what if i say tht its true? or what if i say its not true?
i may be lying to myself, but what to do
i can't tell you because i'm pretty sure it will affect everything
easier said than done, i can give advices to others, yet i cant do what i preach
some folks tried astrology, some turned to crystal balls
how i wish it was tht simple
but all i need, is to be able to wash my brain
please let this lust fade, please let this infactuation cease with time
please just please get out of my life D:
for everything is wrong to start with in the first place
you dont even care, so why should i?
why should i even be so bothered by it
its JUST SO UNFAIR/ why am i the one suffering from these troubles
yet you're freee from all these craps?
- but sometimes, i cant help but get all sour over some stuffs D: pffts

not to worry, yiqing's still yiqing
i'm still pretty optimistic about life, no suicide =l
hahahahaha! yea just feeling, UNFAIR! <- a childish yet true word
yea yea, and you'll go, " nothing's fair in this world yiqing"
hahaha- then i'll be like " YEA"
and start whining again.


p.s : YOU, get out of my life just for awhile. just for a moment
just let me feel less silly and dumb. for whining and speaking to myself in my blog
its all because of you ! x( bleahs!


today's a fun and busy day with loads of pictures :D
but as usual, being the lazy meeeee --> TMR! haha
went for cchmsco practice in th morning, helped with the percussions, haha!
it was fun, after practice listened t their audition =P i think me n ly were just there taking pictures D: ! irritated tania and huirong n many others
after audition went and played alot of rubbish, like LONG TENG attempt to play HUA HAO/TIAN SHAN, but uhh, EXCPET LONGTENG the rest failed!
i love my juniors so much, and i'm so proud of them
went marinasquare had subway, ok not me but ly tzw and cheryl
met "godmom" a.k.a tzw's mummy, ultra cool !
then we went to ink and got the 3 bags =P
after tht me ly tzw tania headed off to bugis again, to look for tht bag shop in bugis streeet
negotiated with the uncle, bought like 10TEN more bags there, had fun rubbish-ing with th uncle and we saw MAO BI LAO SHI THRE! :D:D:D see, cchms rocks!
made alot of noise took some pictures will post tmr!
& we loook SUPER RETARDED carrying those BRIGHT ORANGE AND YELLOW bags around BUGIS, and i had to bring some home all th way to woodlands. haha!
uhuh, they accompanied me t th mrt station cause i need to go marina bay to meet my fellow harmonians since tzw sorta CON me there in the first place =P
so met up with my dearest classmates and yep had steamboat for dinner.
talked alot played alot of games and i still dont quite get it.
right, I'M ABIT SLOW only okays. i still QUITE get it one !
after tht we played bowling + photo hunt! super fun i tell u
and we scored alot of HIGH SCORES ( pictures tmr ) hehe
went home with xiangrui and sammy :D
i still love my classmates so super duper ultra mega very much!
okok, also my cchmsco juniors+seniors and geckies!
i guess i ought to be contented with what i have, with these friends as a blessings
there's no reason why i should complain and whine
but still, I LOVE WHINING cause its irritating =P
got scolded by momma cause reached home EARLY, 1215am
so i cant go out tmr D: !

theme of the week " NO MASKS "
- right xueqi?

love all of you :D
god bless


Saturday, January 20, 2007
i feel stupid thinking about rubbish D:
right rubbish, but i need to vent this out cause whenever i keep it inside i'll feel oasbgbaigsandkn
and there's no one i can talk to about this, so i cant even blog about it.
but i'm whining here about how irritated i am by myself.
i got into this myself la, how dumb i dont even know since when
- i dont think u guys know what i'm talking about la but i'm just talking rubbish for me to know and for you guys to ignore-
why is it so hard to ignore, why is it so hard to forget, why is it so hard not to love?
bet you guys are laughing at how silly i am to fall into this deep pool of rubbish
i knew it wasn't even right in the first place, cause its totally impossible
but its so hard, you know i've tried and it failed when...
hmmmmm time flies, and its gonna be like a year since.
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish

D: i need to be preoccupied by some things so that i can stop thinking
until i get out of this rubbish, i'll be struggling
it seemed wrong, sure yea, it wasnt even right in the first place
its not right, its not right, its not right
so yiqing please stop thinking about nonsensical stuffs now!
studies ought to be your priority
music ought to be your love
focus on what's happening now and not whats GONNA happen in the future at this moment
cause you know its not gonna help
yiqing you should learn that this will never happen
so wake up from this sweet little dream of yours cause you're living in REALITY not your cute fantasy
but what's reality, are you sure this is even th reality
are you sure this is the truth?
what if reality isnt reality
and what we see as the truth isnt the truth
infact truths are just assumptions made to believe.
i dont know myself, i feel so sanfoisagha now
all these feelings, i hope it will go away soon shoooo!
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY

PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY

i can only do so in silence, perhaps only in silence can i seek solace.
in a dilema now.
until then, tell me how not to love.
or perhaps, love in another way. i dont know

haha, so rubbish, right bye


skipped another day of school
met ly in the afternoon at bugis, bought my shirt, but i still want tht pretty shirt in tht shop!
chilled at starbucks again :D mocha mocha!
oh before i forget, i had MOS for lunch blahs i know i shouldnt
BUT I'M SUPPOSE TO REMAIN SICK UNTIL WEDNESDAY ----- XCOUNTRY!
i love starbucks and we started writing crap on the paper, " An Invitation to Fred lai to OUR birthday party " haha! okay it was rubbish la
i always feel stupid and do stupid stuffs with ly -__-
anyway we decided to go kinokuniya !
browsed through the philosophy section, haha quite alot of good books
then we started talking about TABLES and many dumb stuffs. -_-
and started QUESTIONING OURSELVES, make us look retarded
uhuh- so i bought this book about 'simple words' and ' ONE LITRE OF TEARS'!
argh i love the story D: its super sad!
then headed off to meet xueqi and ivan and NIC!
haha geco was fun today too bad someone's at some OG outing
played yulinling, then sam avilyn jiwei and benedict came .......................................................
then ya. nothing much
can't wait for next practice?
haha i love my geco mates, geckies!

p.s : xiaole's a pig D:
p.p.s: shunta's MIA-ing
-----hmmmmms?


Thursday, January 18, 2007
i think the medicine's making me feel sleepy D:
watched american idol season 6, super funny but i felt guilty for laughing at some of them though hehe
you know what, somewhere over the rainbow, i'll find you :D
& soon you'll be happy again, then i'll be happy too
i realised i'm easily affected by my friends' emotions, but i can't help it
tht feeling's quite bad sometimes cause knowing you cant do anything, sucks
all i can say is, if it helps any wheee bit, i'll be waiting for the old you to come back
you really gotta help yourself. friends are a pillar of support, yes
but you're the concrete/cement that holds the pillar together
anyway, love you! big hug~ :D:D:D
p.s : i'll eat you up if you dare to eat that person i once knew, grrr.

sleeeeeeeepy, eyes popping already x(
guess i'll end here, meeting ly tmr
then xueqi and ivan! hope tmr will be a better day
it will it will it will ! cause tonight i'll pray that god relieve us from the miseries
and make the world a happier place. love loads !

p.p.s: stomach feels WEIRD ): must be the ORANGES again.


hehe i'm back!
argh u know what, i sld have ate more apples so that i can keep the doctor away
really dont like to see the doctor D: just dont like tht feeling
but anyway, i love the doctor, cause i have 2 days of mc
so i'll be ''resting'' at home. which makes me feel like a total slacker after missing school for 3 days this week.
i think the amt of water i drink has not reached 500ml today
i'm suppsed to drink like 2Litres today, promised fred D:
but yea..shhh
i really think i'm bad a taking care of sick people, uh like me.
been eating loads of stuffs i sldnt eat at all..
like last night, ate a whole plate of oranges when mummy says you cant eat oranges if you're suffering from cough .
i drank cookies and cream mocha yesterday night at the cafe
ate longjohn's fries
tday after seeing the doctor bought this chocolate cookie thing D:
shit-
anyway i practiced today ! :D
so happy, found my (gan jue)
and i found it easier to handle my qin zhu-s nowadays
yays! i cant wait for lessons with weilaoshi to start
i cant wait till results are out.
i wanna join SYF this year D: pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease..
hahahaha so random. but yea
going back on saturday maybe? with ly to check out those juniors again
i hope they've improved!
and zhiwen! the trip to the BEaaaaaaaACH!
today's 18th! guess what . its KHR's birthday
15th funky birthday! wheeeeeeeeeeeeee love ya
time really really flies :( that makes me feel old
oh and its 2 months countdown from now !
not loooking forward to it cause i gues it wld be no different from the other years laa
since i dont really celebrate either
last year was spent AT HOME , how nice D:
its pretty no life la, and i got no --- cake! how sad D:
but glad tht i've got loads of blessings from my dearest friends.
well so i guess this year wld be the same
hopefully i've grown mature-er in terms of my thinking and music
:D

mummmmmmmmmmy's coming back today!
hehe


helllo, i'm at home now D:
didnt go school today cause i woke up feeling even crappier
gonna see the doc later, blahs i dont wanna go school tmr too
cause there's pe, horrible horrible pe. !
why is it so hard to be optimistic and happy ?
i just want the world to be a happier place
i just want my friends to be happy tooooo
right, this sounds dumb & dumber
okays i think xueqi's gonna be like '' eh yiqing, thinking rubbish again ! ''
geco tmr and i hope xueqi and ivan comes ! :D
abit sad that nic and jake cant come though, n tht jere got some og thing going on this friday.
blahs . =P
watching i shouldnt be alive on discovery channel, super gross D:
scaaaaaaaaary
update tonight, bye for now!


Wednesday, January 17, 2007
xueqi xueqi xueqi
i guess different people have their own standards of music appreciation/different views and opinions too. music, is subjective
now you know your mistakes and stuffs, so work on it and convince others
using your music . cause there's no point going all -depressed- over it
its not even gonna help a bit!
信心 ,失去了also can be found.
cause i find tht 信心 is an accumulation. remember the rock?
you have to be a strong strong girl xueqi
perhaps this time you didnt play that well, but with the experience and exposure i believe and am quite certain that you'll improve.
while there are some who may dislike your playings, never forget those that appreciated your music. by losing this thing called -信心- isn't it disappointing to those who have always believed in you. i must admit there are flaws in your performance, but not alot of people can play 100% on stage, its the overall feeling that you gave the audience thats important, because people dont usually remember you for your individual mistakes but rather, the impact you have caused after you finished playing your last note.
why do i see a contradictory in the way you think?
i can confidently tell you this that, xueqi , ni真的, 没有那么差
pleasepleaseplease be strong cause there are sooo many people out there who believed in you
dont be disappointed and sad and depressed cause it makes me depressed too D:
loads of love, yqing

music is a paradox indeed.


oh i feel like crap, shit, sick D:
horrible, had the 'TERRIBLEST' experience during pe today
after running for 8 rounds + those torturing stuffs after that
i had trouble breathing properly, i was like shit
cause i never had sucha problem, i never had asthma, my family doesnt have any history of asthma. it got worst after that, when i started breaking into cold sweats i was so scared
so i held onto atiqah's hand D: i can feel that my ear is blocking out the sound( aiya u get the idea) + breathing problem = BLACK OUT. i swear i almost black out okays.
if not for the momentem i've found in my breathing i would had ):
thanks for the concerns =D
i'm alright after awhile but still feeling strengthless.
oh ya had menstrual cramp laaa , it sucks being a girl sometimes. bleahs
did i mention how BORING MY GP TEACHER IS, i almost fell asleep !
after school, skipped house meeting, met meixuan and huimin !
yays =D watched spirit of the victim, haha COMPLICATED PLOT
we were scaring ourselves , hehe
after that walked around and chilled at some cafe, whose mocha suckd
cause starbucks was full D: i want my mocha ice blended!
meeting them tmr again i think, we'll see i'm feeling super sick now
-cold
-runny nose
-crappy throat
-menses
-fever
ARGH, shit its a bad day but was brightened by my sunshines! =D
i'll update more tmr pictures tmr , i'm sick sick sick

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA /XIAOWUGUI
i love you so so so much my gossip partner :D


Tuesday, January 16, 2007
so its a super-fagalicious-ultra-boring-till-you-can-sleep-day !
okay that word makes TOTALLY -NO SENSE
today during civics, we did this goal thing, and it made me realised some question....
- why am i in innova?
to be stucked there, its not a choice, yet i'm not forced to stay there. blahs well u can say there's only one reason i stay, thats because of - education for 1st 3 months
right, it sounds totally wrong, like YIQING- HELLO?! studying? yiqing= studying = NOLINK!
to be stucked in sucha college for 1st 3 months
to have a screwed up orientation
to have no proper OG
one word - sucks.
you know that feeling? its like everyone's talking about their OG mates
and here i am, not knowing who my real OG mates are.
all bcause of the system in this school that caused the lost in the sense of belonging
but thank god, my classmates are fine, yea they're nice and stuffs
had alot of fun talking to atiqah and gang, the constant whinings with priya =p
nice people . at least there are no bimbos in my class .

EIGHT 8 FREAKING ROUNDS + UNLIMITED TORTURE.
how i wish they never built that track in their school
pe is such a torture D: maybe i'll just tell them i'm having my menstral cramp and not run or do anything :D hahahahahahaha
skipping house meeting, totally waste of time
so i'm meeting my dearest meixuan and sweeety huimin :D!
happy happy happy happpy happy !
they rock so much hehe

was roaming around bishan while waiting for xiaole, bought MARSHMELLOWS again
and some nice cards from tht christian bookstore
argh i miss going to church D:
ever since my grandpa changed church i've stopped going cause you know my fam isnt really christian . only me & my grandpa + my aunts la
i still remembered it was actually SARAH( my primary school mate!) that introduced me to her god and i gotta know alot of stuffs. used to enjoy sunday school, loved singing songs of praises and worship! loved hanging out with those people at citykids! <- note : CITYKIDS, i was still quite young then. well they had CITYTEENS though but i left before i even went for their service . D: i miss church!

love you people like i love my marshmellows, hehe
<3


Monday, January 15, 2007
i dread school i dread school i dont wanna go to schoool
please please please let th results be out early cause i need to get outta there, real soon ):
you guys have no idea how horrible life is there. wait, i dont think i have a life there.
okays, enough of whining :D that feels better ...
i can't wait for friday and the weekends to come again soon !
but i have to survive till then, cause either i'll be bored to death/ i'll be tortured during pe
freaky, there's this bruise on my feet, it was red yesterday and it itch, so i kept scratching it and now its blueblack =<
I NEED MY LIFE BACK D: sldnt have even chose innova, argh
should have appealed for NY/AC
see, i'm whining again, sorry people =(

music, yes i need music
MUSICALLY DEPRIVED NOW LA
other than geco on friday, i got no practices already
even though IJ has chinese orchestra, oh wait, it sldnt be called a chinese orchestra at all
the correct term would be, QUARTET
this is sad, i'm seriously feeling so musically deprived
D: save me !


LY - go to my photobucket to get all the pictures okays :D
here are some random pictures !
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thats jake !
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haha they're gonna kill me for putting this here but i dont think they'll visit my blog =P
nic jere and jake! haha spastic moments :p
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oh! thats xueqi playing luyao during her performance
pretty !
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haha me and ly at ECP =P
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starbucks with fred and ly :) fun!
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hehe clarence trying to pull of as a girl, 'clarence's sister'
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cute ALFRED!
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the inverted umbrella used to store rainwater, then splash it on innocent victims..
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the couple ; dearest estelli + clarence =D
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i love my juniors, er maybe except junyuan =P hehe
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harmonians at the recent outing!
xiangrui meixuan me joce weiyi = love !

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my all time favourite, MRS FIELD'S ROCKY ROAD
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the pretty rainbow after rain c:
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to end this off, me and liangyu at countdown 2007!


i feel like a bad bad bad girl today, cause i skipped school
wells, woke up with a headache and abit of fever you see. i hope i didn't miss out alot :c
( looks at the sky ) i think its gonna rain soon! right, i'm feeling so bored-y now
you make me smile, you always do, just that you never realised.
haha! i know what i can do now.. shall upload my pictures to the computer! but i'm still lazy...
okays later =D

i like this story, so here goes..
When I was a little boy, my mother used to embroider a great deal. I would sit at her knee and look up from the floor and ask what she was doing. She informed me that she was embroidering. As from the underside I watched her work within the boundaries of the little round hoop that she held in her hand, I complained to her that it sure looked messy from where I sat.
She would smile at me, look down and gently say, "Son, you go about your playing for a while, and when I am finished with my embroidering, I will put you on my knee and let you see it from my side."
I would wonder why she was using some dark threads along with the bright ones and why they seemed so jumbled from my view. A few minutes would pass and then I would hear Mother's voice say, "Son, come and sit on my knee." This I did only to be surprised and thrilled to see a beautiful flower or a sunset. I could not believe it, because from underneath it looked so messy.
Then Mother would say to me, "My son, from underneath it did look messy and jumbled, but you did not realize that there was a pre-drawn plan on the top. It was a design. I was only following it. Now look at it from my side and you will see what I was doing."
Many times through the years I have looked up to my Heavenly Father and said, "Father, what are You doing?" He has answered, "I am embroidering your life." I say, "But it looks like a mess to me. It seems so jumbled. The threads seem so dark. Why can't they all be bright?" The Father seems to tell me, "'My child, you go about your business of doing My business, and one day I will bring you to Heaven and put you on My knee and you will see the plan from My side."

(:

its weird, but yes i do. argh this is irritating :< !


Sunday, January 14, 2007
dangs! so tired, almost couldnt get out of the chair on the train just now ):
morning met ly at ECP, rollerbladed :D ! shocked that 966 actually changed route, i thought i took the wrong bus ..
parkway, sakae , saw alvin ! then went home rushed to SP.
met xueqi and gang, talked.
didn't watch TPCO's concert, sorry fred ): cause it was abit late to rush there so decided to give it a skip . after SPCO concert had dinner with them, pizza hut...
jeremy's a SICKO ( i hope he doesnt sees this ) was teasing nic about that 'traumatizing thing' that happened =P we ended up laughing so badly. crazy people. hehe
went home with jere ivan and peiqian...
i hope xueqi's happy with her performance cause every performance is a chance to gain experience which is important! so i bet your next performance will be even better, will be anticipating ! :D yays- love you guys!

'' Because you are special- special
Everyone is special
Everyone in his or her own way
Yes you re special -special
Everyone is special
Everyone in his or her own way! '

i like this song (:


i'm super tired ):
so i couldnt wake up on time and took the cab again.
reached sch and managed to hear them play i'm so proud of my TBY :D
i love my juniors/cchmsco !
then after that we went to NYNY to have our lunch ..like around 16 of us?
we were so full and clarence was super funny =P the chicken he ordered was....erm HUGE
started taking pictures and played with the face warp, amusing! self entertainment u see
talked alot. hehe then we headed to marina and met ritxu&fred! saw yixiang at FOURskin
nothing much. then they went to watch the SCO gala concert i think .
me fred ritxu ly went to bugis , kaixiang went for his performance after that.
looked for bags in bugis with ly and fred, and he felt cheated at marina -_-
haha chilled at STARBUCKS! we did tutorials, hardworking can't believe myself =l
until like 1030 then we decided to go home
960 was HORRIBLE, argh couldnt find a seat so i stand until bukitpanjang. gosh-

ECP WITH LY TMR! yays =D
''i'm disappointed with how practical life can be'' -xq
how true. but you're not alone my dear girl.

love,
me


Saturday, January 13, 2007
had geco today :D like finally, reunited!
was quite fun, we played all of our competition pieces like yulinling, yeshenchen etc.
but it was quite horrible cause many of us are unfamiliar with the pieces.
met LY after school ate at XIAOLONGBAO! =) again.
talked talked talked. i wanna buy an umbrella, umbrella scouting tmr? =D
right, going back cchmsco tmr yays finally seeing my juniors !
oh ya i'm suppose to remind ly that she's suppose to get 'DONG' scores from cchms !
blahs, so i need to wake up early tmr as their co starts at 9am.
no cabs just 966 ! i hope i can wake up~!

to min ru : silly girl, ahh i dont know what to say but i really really really hope you're alright.
even though i'm not always there, but i'm always there! sounds contradicting but yes its true okays. i hope you're fine now. i love you ! and it hurts to see to hurt too.

to xueqi : SUNDAY'S the big big day :D hehe dont worry okays. i'll pray for him to feel well again, and i'm sure he will . never doubt the power of prayers&god, but miracles do happen so yea. lala you can one la. i'll be there what =D haha. love you ! and i'm sure you'll do us proud . yays!


Thursday, January 11, 2007
i realised some stuffs that i find it rather hard to put it into words.
anyway, on a random thought, i love it when it rains. it reminds me about alot of stuffs
then memories start to come back.
jenny's one of the most mature person i've ever seen for her age. i guess its because of the stuffs she went though overseas.
sometimes i wonder if i'll be that strong girl i said i was.
because no matter how strong i appear to be, no one knows whats beneath that facade.
the fears i have & usually, i wont tell anyone this because i knew what they were gonna say and there's no one but myself that is able to help.
next, be true to yourself. this is one of the hardest thing to achieve i guess.
because we humans tend to belive only what we want to believe . thats how the human's mind works. we tend to loook at the pretty stuffs and overlook the rest. we look at the pretty flowers by the roadside/garden, yet we forgot how much care and effort is needed until the flowers bloom. i'm sorry if this is a lousy example but yea, you get the idea :D
Genuine,this is th theme of the year for me !
somehow, i cant sense the genuine in people anymore. i used to, but now i cant
i dont know if its me or the people around me. okays i shouldnt blame them. but yea, i dont sense it anymore . no one touched my heart since like you guys did.
-talking about this made me realised how much i missed 'genuine' in my life.
tears kinda whelmed up not in my eyes, but my heart.

-jenuine. =)
( en en )


i'm so happy :D cause nini told me some stuffs, omg i miss jennnynieh so much!
its something happy yet at the same time i cant help but to feeel sad
has been 2 years or so since she left. you know what? i missed her since then!
right about jennny nieh chih ning, she's one of the wonderful-est friend i've ever met.
everything about her made me smile. sweet caring and stuffs
memories of 2 harmony is coming back now. i miss jiaying! sheila regina charlotte!
so many of you guys. sweeetness :D
right, spot check as you've promised okays nini =)
you know what, you guys are the bestest bestest bunch of people i've met .
nini said tht and i agreed .
i guess i'm lucky that i've met friends like tht in my life before.
friends like lilywong stephchiang jennynieh even min ru! and many many more.
you guys know who you are :D i love all of you .

SIX MONTHS / 6 MONTHS! looking forward.


Wednesday, January 10, 2007
okays, i'm blogging for the 2nd time already, i can't sleep so yea decided to digress here. and bore u guys( just in case any one of u are reading) with my nonsensical comments.
i think the human brain's really interesting.
like how i dont want tht t happen, how i dont wanna do that
but i ended up going against what my mind tells me to.
involuntary reflex action eh . argh i want to cheer up soon
but i need to put down sme stuffs first. but its really hard you see.
and i've been trying my best already, it's at the extreme
i'm closer to the finish line, vividly smell the air of victory.
yet something's telling me otherwise...

" you're amazingly amazing, in other words, incredibly incredible :D " isnt it cute?
^^ i was like beaming to myself when i heard this on tv just now when i was watching extreme makeover.
cheerios! bye-


so co was cancelled today =l
after school met meixuan instead :D oh! there's a new girl in th class, Jasvine, she seemed nice !
we decided to go bishan, had yoshi for lunch. then walked around and talk.
so i kinda "cut" my hair, its thinner now. and shorter by a few CM . but my highlights are still obvious. dangs! so dead-
met meiying, mx's sis . look alike la , seriously!
then we were 'surrounded' by this bunch of girls who were meiying's AUDITION FRIENDS.
haha! it was so scary . forgot t add. meiying's super smart la. RGS :D
then went home. saw ESTHER! i missed her ! though we're in th same school now. we rarely see each other after orientation!
and i was surprised by a tapping on my shoulder, turned around and look
stare for 10 secs- ' she looks super familiar...' while trying to recall .
me " you are.. you are.."
me & her " jeremy's sis!"
and i forgot what happened =l cause i was talking to esther at the same time too plus meixuan and meiying were beside me. so i kinda forgot how i react after tht, gosh i dont even know if i said bye . argh! okoks. haha was happy to see friends tht i have not seen for a long time today.
tmr's a LONG LONG DAY WITH PE AS THE LAST PERIOD, HOW BAD CAN IT GET.
ah and geog diagnostic test . blahs-

you made me strong, with wings i can sore.
but why did u make me strong and take my wings away
now i'm falling from the sky, i lost everything.
i hope when i awake, its a fresh beginning, i want to forget these.
i hope i didn't even know your presense in the first place.
all these, argh emo shit. for what? silly.
sunshine/rain. sunshine, i missed you!


Tuesday, January 09, 2007
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kinda bored now so i guess i'll start talking to the blog.
sometimes i think, i think tooo much.
SYF is coming soon for both JC and Secondary
cchmsco, where i had my best and worst memories. where i found friends that i know i'll treasure. qin bing ma yong, our song :D our concert on 180606 . i hope my darling juniors rmembered what i've 'taught' and 'said' but i'm sure my dear huirong will be there to guide them along. well, i miss those times i had sectionals with them. tht time when we ordered pizza in cause we were sooo hungry. those extra practices we had. seeing how the liuqin-s practice so hard, how the pipa-s hold auditions then and now, how the ZRs get scolded by me for not practicing enough. i've seen how you guys improved and i'm sure you guys can create another miracle and fulfill our unfulfilled dream. argh, these are all the past, but i'm kinda missing it alot. i'm proud to say i have really great juniors, well those that i know la . ESTELLI, by any chance if you're reading this, i missed you so much, i really hope you're doing fine and hmmmm dont ever let anyone bully you alright! i hope cchmsco will do great and make everyone WOW ! hehe okok enough of bragging


back from school !
laoshi called me in school just now and i got the shock of my life, i thought what had happened!
he just said there's this erhu girl from nafa who needs an acompaniment for her performance on febuary and this concert in march. just talked to her and she's gonna play tan dun's piece ): qin qiang and another piece i forgot the name but i'm meeting her on thursday. haha. i dont know just dont know if i can do it. but i hope that through this, i can gain more experience and exposure. ah please pray for me! D: cause she sounds professional & i'm scared.
avoidance, the impractical yet only soluble solution. sometimes i have this feeling that you're avoiding me. but fact is, i'm actually avoiding what my brain tells me, i'm ignoring the fact, fact that we're not meant to be. fact that we're each living in the world of our own. blahs, yiqing stop thinking about it, has been so long, its time you move on and get a life because everyone's doing so except you !
argh dongxiao sent me the recording of tht tandun's piece just now
it's great, i like tht song, BUT it sounds so so so so so scary ):
ahhhh okoks shall stop freaking myself out.


Monday, January 08, 2007
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i guess i should reply to my tags here!
xueqi- awww thankyou! yes yes i guess i kinda grasp the whole 'socialising' thing now :D
nana- yea i know =D so i'm trying hard now! & i misssssed you so much ! we should hang out again someday !
xiuli- i missed you too and all the harmonians, i miss sitting beside donglin! i miss my partner!
ru - love, me :D
sheery dear- DEAR! ah i missed you too and i'm glad i'm missed hehe. come for the next outing okays (: have fun at work!
peiwen- hehe we'll see when i have my results >.< Nj is always flooded by RV people . lol
huirong- yoyoyoyo! whatsup! yea i'm doing fine now, thanks girl! hope you're coping well with sec 3 life, mug hard alright! no honeymoon okays!
ykt- silly girl, its about contradictory sentences like it can be correct yet when its correct, fact is , its wrong. but when it's wrong it can actually be correct. rahs complicated stuffs which i dont know how to explain too =P
xiaoping- HELLO ! haha

tday was first day of hmmmm, lectures
it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, and my class is quite nice too :D
thank god ! people like amanda fajrina sarah atiqah chuanmin and even faisal are nice!
had a fun time debating with 'atiki' today, so like sarah's gonna join co
ther's this practice on wednesday 3-7pm, i dont know what to expect but i dont really expect something good, honestly. hope i'll enjoy my time there !
harmonians outing today! lunch at subway, i swear we were making sooo much noice
hehe, then watched them play bowling after that =l
meixuan was nice! but i was nicer cause i treated her to a movie ' Blood Diamond'
it's quite a good movie, reality again yea but i enjoy hanging out with meixuan !
oh and talked alot to wongwong too! i missed her soo much !
so we were gossiping about loads of stuffs =P aww i know, EVIL right! but thats how life is.
much as i hate gossips, i LOVE gossiping! ha!
was super duper tired, and there's PE tmr, we're suppose to run like FOUR 4 ! rounds around the track. so i bought my running shoes today =D like finally!
i think i like my geog lecture cause the lecturer is interesting and engaging unlike my econ's lecturer -_- ! ok enough of whining sld be happy that i survived today!

miss you guys! bye :D


Sunday, January 07, 2007
have you ever wondered why do people always say, follow your heart when its not your heart that does the thinking, instead, your brain.
have you ever thought why were tables called "table" & chairs, "chair"
i guess there are no absolute answers to these questions.
thus, there is no absolute explaination as to why tables are named table
tables are table because since young we're taught that 'fact'
however these 'facts' are actually how the scientists perceive it to be
okays, its quite contradictory. but you get the picture.
people may never come to an agreement concerning morals or the existence or nature of god, but nearly everyone concurs that 1+1=2. well, logic is the fundamental tool we use to convince ourselves and others that those beliefs are valid.
" the one thing that i know is that i know nothing" - Socrates
is a paradox for if he knows nothing, he cannot know that this statement is true.
interesting eh..here's something from the book
" People tend to make certain logical assumptions about their thoughts. First , we assume that some statements are true. Second, we often assume that no statement can be both true and false. Third, we often assume , mistakenly, that every statement must be either true or false. If a friend tells u that it is raining, he is either lying or telling the truth. Or is he? After all, it is probably raining somewhere in the world at that moment. But what happens if a man comes up to you and says " i'm a liar"? if the statement is true, then he's not a liar, so the statement is false. But the statement cant be false, because if that were the case, he would be telling the truth and would not be a liar."
it makes me ponder.. so yea (:


harmonians outing tmr :D can't wait! hehe
so i met fishball and jo today at city hall, they were suppose to do their homework
but apparently, they didnt' do their homework but literally stare at it.
well, jo did some but ru did 2 slides and then stopped -_____-
i bought books today ! haha yays i love the book i bought
its called " why we believe what we believe" learnt quite alot (:
some quotes that i find rather interesting .
" How do we find happiness and peace? The first step is to learn that we do not need to grasp the absolute truth in order to survive. We can appreciate the mysteries of the universe and the mysteries of the brain; and we can learn to trust our intuition, to have faith in our biological and even spiritual drives. When we do so, we will find that it is easier to sleep at night"
oh oh! & this one's pretty nice too.
" Am i a man who dreamed i was a butterfly?
Or am i a butterfly, dreaming that i am a man?
Perhaps my whole life is but a moment in a butterfly's dream!"

:D tmr's the start of lectures! i'm just gonna mug my ass off
haha. jiayou everyone ! & i'm still looking forward to tmr's outing! yays


Saturday, January 06, 2007
i'm so bored now that is being played over and over again on iTunes.
i'm so bored now that i'm starting to talk nonsense
i'm so bored that even with nothing to blog i'm blogging :D
right, so i bet you guys can infer how bored i am feeling now.
meeting min ru and joane tmr ! oh and estelli to passs her my bio notes and some geog stuffs
nice senior =) okays, so lesson starts officially next week . lectures and more lectures
GEOG ECONS MATHS .
i wanna go vj or acjc, but please pray that my O level results will be good
cause i kept having nightmares that i'm gonna get more than 15! ):
haha must have faith right? yea -

so...
i dont know why i will feel that way either, and i'm telling u that this feeling aint good
you know, i hope its just an infactuation so that i will get over it soooon

okay i really got nothing to blog except how much i miss my friends
harmonians
cchmsco
cchms
i missed you guys alright! so so so so so much
you guys brought me much fun love and laughter in the 4 years
but you guys have moved on in life, so have i
so i'll carry these memories that i have with me, thank you guys and thank god!


i feel so lazy nowadays D:
but i need to run run run run run ! hehe
okok i promise to start tmr !


you, dont go lala over someone when you're with someone else, cause tht makes you a j-e-r-k.
right, so maybe love makes someone blind, i know i shouldnt really care, but hey she deserves something better. so now you're the goody guy and we're being "mis-trusted" <-- if there's sucha word. if you're in a wrong, you jolly well admit it. stop playing a nice guy infront of us & her bcause your actions, sometimes disgust me. i'm sorry i have to say this bcause you are my friend and i dont want you to end up like some jerk in the society in the future.
i didnt go to school today, missed alot of stuffs at orientation but yea.
went for qing gong yan at geco today (:
was quite funny, had fun with my usual mates there again hehe
but something happened that kinda pissed me off, right? ):
thank you nana & xueqi
i will i will (: hehe i will survive!
jiayou yiqing, jiayou everyone


Thursday, January 04, 2007
i wanna be a happy girl
not someone who keeps whining about her life D:


i'm just feeling very depressed suddenly, sorry but i'll be alright soon i guess
got into my new class today, wasnt really impressed but some of the girls were nice i guess.
its the 2nd day of orientation, things were going fine. pretty plain and dull
maybe it's just me, see told you i'm feeling very depressed now.
argh you know what, others seem to be having loads of fun
i'm trying to, but sometimes all of a sudden, i turned and look around me
realising that i was alone, lonliness within me was like a cup filled to the brim, overwhelming
i dont feel the warmth i felt when i was at cchms, in fact i felt NOTHING
10th feb there's this carnival at innova and we're suppose to participate, how can i say no? since its all planned and stuffs.
the thought that i have to work with my "classmates", i dont know got no comments-
currently in my depressed mode now, so ya- maybe until i get my O levels results
sorry that i have to blog about my life, oh wait, i got no life now
bye-


Wednesday, January 03, 2007
i belive many of US are back to school D:
went to my "new" school which i'm quite certain tht i wont stay long there.
but yea, i get to learn new stuffs like socialising with people which i find it kinda hard nowadays
i still remembered my first day at CCHMS, i had quite a problem too.
but as time passed, socialising was no longer an issue but how you maintain your friendship
i guess i have to learn how to adapt, like what xueqi said
it's important tht one learns how to adapt to a changed environment which reminds me of what moses said before about how musicians should learn how to adapt and play in different places and environment =l i guess i'm really bad at adapting, but i'll try!
its funny how i'm afraid of the dark, how i'm afraid of BUTTERFLIES, how i'm afraid of ballooons but yet what i fear most is human beings, ourselves. (how ironic)
i know its silly tht i'm afraid of making new friends, therefore i chose to keep to myself.
a day at orientation made me realise how weak of a person i am. i need someone to be there with me, i need comfort, i need company, i need my friends to be high --> there with me
but yiqing, grow up, its time to walk outta this comfort zone and get into the real world.

i missed you -
but i rather you not know anything, bcause sometimes, ignorance is a bliss. a blessing in disguise.


Monday, January 01, 2007
as i was literally stone-ing, i decided to be KIND and NICE to write about someone
who has brought alot of "interesting-happenings" into my life
thats none other than, HENG MIN RU ( who hates having her name spelt without the space, mind you :D )
when i was sec 1, she was sec 2, we rarely talk because then, i only talkd to sylvia(she was the first-est person i talked to in cchmsco! )
but i dont know since when, or was it because of my "out-going personality", ME BEING NICE AND STUFFS, i got to know her. yep, actually i kinda forgotten how and when on earth i got to know her, but yea i'm glad i did :D so we talked about almost EVERYTHING! from co stuffs to guys to friends, GOSSIPS ! we became even better friends when i was in sec 2 and she was in sec 3 (: it was then when [P.Q.R] was formed, me min ru and zhaopei . we had alot of fun then, but we seemed to drift apart, well its hard to have things to stay the same. but i really did treasure the times we spent together, the outings we had, i remembered the christmas outing (: and i remembered the present you bought, the box with the sweet is still in my display cabinet and the necklace, i keep it in my drawer, cant wear it cause its rusty. haha silly you, asked me if the necklace you wore that day was pretty, i said YES! and then you surprised us by taking out 2 other necklaces and gave each one of it to us, omg i love you la <3
and yes, i remembered our COUNTDOWN TO 2006 AT KBOX with those maris stella ppl.
how we got stranded at orchard and walked all the way until we found a place to flag for cab. ( i still owe tht guy 20 bucks =P) & not forgetting those random trips we've made, whether its a shopping trip, movies, or kbox, we had fun and i had fun TEASING my dear min ru !
oh oh! i also remembered how i will walk to yr class and loook for you tht time.
and chiawsang will make me laugh like some crazy girl =l like tht time he had a bad stomach, then he stuffed toilet rolls he stole from the other toilets into his locker and the rows of medicine. haha! EAST ZONE CAMP, you solo-ed, I LOVE THAT SONG and you looked PRETTY ! well i missed the min ru playing ruan, i really do ):
joys we shared, tears we shed (not literally) but yea, you get the idea
we're made to be not-perfect, in other words, we have our flaws
so we tend to be rather P-M-SY at times, especially this period when you were sec 4
i was super duper worried and i didnt dare to talk to you at times
but i'm glad we got through that period (:
whenever i'm feeling DOWN, lonely, depressed min ru will always be one of the first on my list to whom i'll confide in because to me, she's not only a friend but rather, A SISTER
and she'll always try her best to give sensible comments and cheers me up
so min ru ! whenever you have any problems, you can always ALWAYS msg me or something because you know i'll be there, and i mean it!
min ru has her own circle of friends, so do i .
sometimes, i may tend to "forget" her and not contact her for quite a long time especially so when she graduated ): but deeep down, yiqing still treasures this friend of hers. and hope that this FOUR YEARS of friendship will not fade =)
she has taught me alot of stuffs about life, the reality etc.
she has also made me realise the importance of friendship
i know i'll never forget her and even though we dont talk to each other frequently min ru, I'M ALWAYS HERE ! hehe you silly and evil fishball =P
i missed you so much ): better meeet up sooon !
* specially dedicated for HENG MIN RU :D

wanna know the nicknames for min ru?
fishball
mooncake
evil pig
"ba yue shi wu"
---ahh i cant of any now =P lucky you...hehe

LASTLY, I LOVE YOU !


okok i shall update (:
firsly, HAPPY NEW YEAR ! it's 2007 already
1st post of the year! seems like everyone wrote their new year resolution, all except me
cause i'm just too lazy, but i do hope and pray that everything will be alright
& everyone will be happppy ^^
- 9< for O levels
- distinction in diploma for my exam =l
- no more PMS-ING
- more friends :D
- health health health, exercise more!
- learn new songs
- geco's future concert to be a success
- cchmsco GWH for syf
- more smiles for and from everyone!
- to understand music better
- more exposure to the "realm" outside.
- world peace <- ly's gonna say "MISS UNIVERSE ANSWER HAR" haha! =l
- & i wish that all of the above will come true, then yiqing will be a happy girl

right, who cares about yiqing's new year resolution..zzz
everyone changed, i changed, for a better or for a worst, i dont know
yesterday met ly in the morning, went shopping :D
then met chunyang, walked around from city hall to orchard
went to MARSILING CO concert, haha i got no comments about it
then headed to city hall for the countdown
ly chunyang randy peiyan kuangit GECO MATES!
yays- so our legs were sore and aching, gosh and there was a massive crowd
our initial suggestion of going to esplanade was dashed cause of the CROWD
so we were at marina square, fireworks were PRETTY
- sadly the phone lines wer DOWN i couldnt send any msgs
then we asked someone to do something which i shall not disclose
cause we promised not to, right? :D
but yea, it was cute ^^
after that we had a HARD HARD HARD HARD HARD HARD TIME SQUEEZING OUR WAY THROUGH! thanks to kuangit who opened the way for us but we soon lose him cause he moved too fast!! but thank god we survived
and i was whining tht i sld have brought my guess bag cause its smaller la instead of the stupid BIG RED ADDIDAS BAG i brought cause its soooo squeezy .
reached home at 2+am hehe
had fun :D and i'm glad i spent the new year with bestfriend and geco mates (((:

p.s : the 68 dollars BAG , LY WE MUST MUST MUST GET IT ! :D

Sureeporn Ho YiQing♥
seventeeeeeen
i love the music & the SUN, omgosh! BEACH!
" Dear god, please make this world a happier place. Amen"
cause you are special, everyone is special, everyone in his or her own way :D
i'll love all who loves me too! :D


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