one word
M I S E R A B L E
YOU,
you told me loads of stuffs, to break my heart
to accept someone else that i dont even like
to give up on you
i'm telling you now
i'm not gonna accept
because of many reasons
most importantly
i don't even have the slightest liking towards him
yes, he's nice BUT i feel the other way round
get it?
you said you encourage
but the way you put it
its like you're trying to tell me that
"HEY forget about me, he's better, he's more worthy than me, i'm just a nothing" the way you phrase everything makes it sounds as though i'm a something not SOMEONE..you're trying to "PUSH" me to someone
but, do you really know what's love?
i doubt you don't
or you'll never encourage me
that's all i have to say
disappointed

on the other hand,
that person
really sorry
but i cant i really cant
UNFAIR is the only word i could think of
truth is, i don't even like you
your attitude, everything
EVERYTHING get it?
sorry i have to be so harsh

to BOTH
what i'm trying to say is
this is a decision i made
and i will live with it with no regrets
perhaps i've hurt someone
but its better than breaking 2 hearts at a go isnt it?
this time, i wanna be alone, so just leave me alone
i'm sick and tired of these
you said i would be unhappy that person would be unhappy too..
YES, i would be unhappy sometimes...
but it has already been so many months..
i'm glad, really glad i've got friends i could talk to..
that's enough..well i mean alil bit of sadness here and there...
thats life
if i were to accept
i'm telling you
i would feel far worst than before
i won't be happy AT ALL
at least i'm happy now...
seeing you found something/someone in life..for the time being
its enough..

there's nothing i could say more,
perhaps
I'M-REALLY-SORRY
are the only 3 words that i could use to express what i'm feeling now

A L O N E
the best solution to problems