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secret was pretty good (:
dinner was great with good company. with sheila spying and stuffs
i loveLOVE cranberries
please please keep yu ang in your prayers cause he's been hospitalized for some lung thing D:
i know i shouldn't be feeling like this, but damn it. gaaah, feeling upside-down
mugging tomorrow. to keep me occupied while everyone's busy
good night-



i realized everything that i've wrote in my blog is just a summary of my day.
but what about stuffs that i've unknowingly learnt, the emotional aspects, i don't really write it here. not that i don't want to, but i don't see why i should.
but i guess everyone just needs to be inspired but before being inspired, someone has to actually inspire you first. be it intentionally or unintentional, whether the purpose is solely for the sake of inspiring. but to me, my inspirations come from everywhere and anywhere. you don't ask for inspiration, all you have to do is to look around. you'd probably find it somewhere you least expect it to be.
i've seen too many people, trying to be someone they're not.
i won't say i'm not like that sometimes, because i'm human too.
but what is 'identity' ? chinese not being able to speak proper chinese?
i don't know, but i'm starting to realise that chinese is a beautiful language, so deep and mysterious.
i can't say that trying to be someone you're not just to fit into a group isn't right, its a part of social skills anyways. its a society we're living in. but losing yourself just to fit into this 'social-circle' just isn't what i'd agree with.
i'm just me, me as in myself, myself is i. alright that just sounds wrong, but you get the idea.
i was knocked on the head like a dingdongbell which really woke me up, back into the reality. or is it what i perceive to be 'the reality'. who am i? have you ever walked down the streets, like orchard to only realise that everyone looks the same, everyone dresses the same way etc. its like everyone's being crafted into what the society wants us to be.
not really pin-pointing anyone, because what can i say? i'm just me. thats all, fullstop(.)
i haven't been spending time with my family, just realise i've got the cutest parent though.
mom&dad are always busy with their work, rarely see mom in singapore. won't see dad until 1230am. that is if i were still awake. then i realise, once you've become a mom and dad, your life won't revolve around you yourself and i, you'll start to think of your spouse(s), sacrificing their time, spend half of their lives working their asses off, for us. that is, unconditioned love.
&whenever they've got time off, they'll hope that we as children would spend quality time with them, but we'll always say ' oh, i've gotta meet my friends ' - its quite sad isn't it
i think my parents are great people :D
SO, i guess point is, be true to yourself. you are who you want to be. people can't bring us down, because we have our own sets of beliefs. perhaps they are able to influence us, but at the end of the day, its we ourselves that chose to be who we are, they don't make the choices for you.

i guess thats it, i've said too much for today. sheesh
(: love