This Love/ <3

Monday, April 30, 2007

omg. trudy's really gay :) because she showedme( and the rest of the class ) r21 today. alright, its this blog where tht girl was open and proud of her 'interesting experiences with multiple partners' which polluted my innocent mind. applaud for her courage and openess, and booo for being such a sl-t. shant' be mean and comment about others, especially over sensitive issues like such. so yea i just feel so amazed that someone would actually be so proud of it. bcause i just find it disgustingly sick. oh wells :) its her life .
school's boring today, i didn't know that microbio practical is cancelled! so i didn't bring my laptop and almost everyone brought it except neo cause he also didn't know it was cancelled. dangs! but lessons were not productive today though. IPC was rubbish cause we dont even know what drkueh was talking about. alright, blame us(me and truddy) for talking half of the time and sleeping 1/5 of the time there. & blame the chair for being tooo comfy. alright. i actually resisted the temptations of going home after classmates went to clementi macs for lunch and t discuss about physiology project. i think my group rocks.after we finished the discussion. me truddy badd and chenchuan started talking about stuffs. I'M SO AMAZED ( chenchuan! i still can't believe its 5 years! omg, and you're quite romantic to a certain extent. HAHA ) anyways, it was quite funny and interesting. BONDING SESSION! =D
i like talking to badd, bcause he makes sense most of the time :)
then i dragged my way back to school .... until 6pm. I'm a good girl who dont skip lectures! haha . i'm having a headache, must be what truddy showed me earlier. tsk!

well, its tuesday tmr and its A HOLIDAY. outing with the harmonians! cant wait and PHANTOM OF THE OPERA AT NIGHT WITH BESTFRIEND! <3
i hope its a fruitful day tmr :)

love

Sunday, April 29, 2007

hello, i finished work =D
i'm at the libary now with some nooob trying to do some animation stuffs.
anyways, today is full of UPs and DOWNs. i finallly broke down like since dont know when.
and what a place to break down too. ):
there was this huge 'thing' that happened tday, bcause of my itchy mouth.
but its alright now. shan't elaborate here but YOU know what i'm gonna say and what i've said.
i was praying so hard just now bcause i was so scared. that freaked the hell out of me oks.
its spastic t sit at the stupid staircase at little india mrt emo-ing/thinking/c-----
i was writing how i felt in my diary...
& i saw steph - haha <3
i promise i'll say what i really mean from now on. & you better smile more bcause skies are rather glooomy these days. and i really dont want you to add on to the gloomy-ness. i like gloomy days, but i love sunshine more! i'm so glad everything's fine already.( i think, though i still have some unsorted stuffs. but i'll sort it out by tonight i hope )
life would be easier/happier when things are simplified. and i like it that way

OH WELLS. i am ok now. (:
i cant believe the weekends are ending soon. its the only days i look forward to.
i have a mixture of emtions now, trying to sort it out.
I HATE MONDAYS.
no worries xq. i'm okay. <3 thank you! & yes, the bin of rubbish thoughts :)
my stomach feels weird, like there's an excess of gastric juice or something. when i was walking home just now it was so bad that i couldnt even stand straight. its not like i've not eaten anything. i did! oh wells. feeling bettter now.

much love, yq

Saturday, April 28, 2007

EDIT/
realise what i've typed are rather irrelevant and mundane. so i deleted everything (: i'm feeling so guilty, life's really different without it. like i've lost something important, no i've not lost it! i've tried denying, but somehow i know its getting further, and it will, if i'm not holding onto it. dangs, because of my lazy-ness, because of the hesistation. ): i feel so intimidated ( not being competitive ) but everyone around me is moving on, improving. yet i'm still stucked right where i was last year. i'm sorry this is kinda depress-y but i've not talked about it bcause i've been pretending that this feeling doesnt exist, that i am not intimidated. but now i know, ignoring it wont make me feel any better.
its time to find that passion and the love, the motivation oh and the strength. yq&YQ will be back (: i promise. and i dont wanna anyone down.
( oh great, its the AFTERMATH. its POST.ms dangs! well, if you get what i mean. sigh )

- seeking solace and comfort.

"life is alot like a clarinet. you've got your ups and downs, highs and lows. There are the seemingly meaningless days of the throat tone between F and B flat. There are the high notes of days full of worthwhile risks. Then there are squeaks where everything seems to fall apart in your face. There are stunning crescendos and monotonous mezzo pianos. Major, good days; Minor, bad days. A complex system of keys and holes to cover. So many choices due to alternate fingerings; some are better than the others. The soft, calm days of the chalumeau register. Some days you're in tune, some days you sound like a dead goose. Yes, life is like a clarinet. It'll always turn out right in the end, just the the beautiful final note in a Camegie Hall solo... "

love

Friday, April 27, 2007

- on a random-ness, i miss my hair. ):

i'm dreading t go school later. damn cats and s&w
anws, i'm back from school and ge. i'm so worn out, i just dont know why. so like still hate HATE cats, but S&W was really fun :D i love the tcher and running, i seriously think running is fun. like you get t be fit and at the same time, you get to think about alot of stuffs while running. haha feeling so accomplished, pardon me for my lack of vocab i'm UNLIKE some people who got A1 for english ( right :D ) hahaha. am too lazy t flip the thesauraus for other words too. met jere at SP for (festival of praise) FOP thing :) IT WAS FUN! too bad we had t go for geco, or i swear i'll stay until the very end. haha damn funny, i was trying to pose as one of the SP students. so when they asked what course i'm in i'd say DMAT! hahaha then we headed off to geco. practice was rather productive today, probably because ( you know what i mean ) wait, maybe you dont. but oh wells. i AM SO TIRED NOW but my brain just keeps going on and on and on. i'm thinking about alot of stuffs now. okays maybe not really ALOT. but yea :) enough t keep me awake though i'm sleepy and i feel as though i'm gonna fall sick soon. somehow fridays and sundays are like the bestest days of the week . alright i love sunday even though that means I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL ON MONDAY which sucks :) maybe i should turn in early so that i can think on my bed then sleeep, shall do my homework tmr! i am exhausted but today turned out to be better than what i expected it to. MINUS CATS. alrights, i realised something :D but i dont know if its good or bad, well because of some reasons...i am a really troublesome girl, who thinks too much or think that i think too much. HAHA. oh wells thinking is good, keeps your brain cells working. shant elaborate- shall end here <3

love, yq

ps/ had this really bad dream ):

Thursday, April 26, 2007

cabbed t school tday, still ended up late
got drenched in the rain and hopped onto the cab
first thing i did, SNEEEZE :D how smart !
it was freezing and lecture theatre was freezing too ):
anws, DAMN IT, i freakingly left my loveliest phone in th LT!
its still IN THERE, cause the room is locked and i have t wait for th nxt lecture class t get my phone. PRAY THAT ITS STILL IN THERE
argh, i'm sucha scatterbrain! HELP! i feel so, LOST WITHOUT IT.
- HA! see, relying too much on technology, NO! SAVE THE EARTH!
wait, i dont see the link, but OH WELLS~ SAVE THE EARTH!
--------
EVEN THOUGH THE DAY STARTED OFF BADLY- ):
but it ended well i guess. thank god! found my phone.
time seriously flies when you're doing math. feeling ACCOMPLISHED again :D
i finished the online thing, well not finish everything but all that were supposed to be completed. yays-
met xq after schoool cause she was going to yishun, t meet her mom at some facial shop. so yea, GUESS WHAT. i ended up in BISHAN- feel so cheated man.
hahahahaha, cause we were asking jere t take th other direction ! then pulled him up th train. okays DIDNT LITERALLY PULL HIM OKAYS. he walked into the train, WILLINGLY.HAHA- then later, xq conned me into going to BISHAN, TO ACTIVATE MY EZ-LINK CARD. like bishan's the only place with that service. so ME, being such a nice person took all the way to bishan, IT TOOK AN HOUR OK JEREMY WONG. and its NOT LONG.
so jere & i went to pasta for dinner, yumms creamy chicken! and salad! and icelemontea! =D saw DEREK KOH, omgosh damn cute.
jere jinx-ed me so like the wireless wasnt working! tsk-
so we ended up talking, and listening to music.
WHILE JERE FELL ASLEEEEEEEEEEEEP FOR A WHOLE 40 MINTUES. imagine playing YUN NAN HUI YI 1/3 AND A CHUNQIU, you can imagine how long he slept. haha-
( 6.2CM !! ) <---- HAHA :)
then we went home. THE JACKET IS DAMN COMFY I ATTEMPTED TO KIDNAP IT BUT ATTEMPT FAILED CAUSE SOMEONE THREATENED TO KIDNAP MY LAPTOP TOO. anws yays - TO LIFE WITHOUT STANDARD TICKETS.!

TMR WILL BE A GREAT DAY I GUESS, MINUS CATS AND S&W IN TH AFTERNOON, otherwise i guess life will be close to perfect. its so GAY.
WONG XINRUI, JEREMY (haha) & GOH XUEQI ! all the best for tmr's competition alright
though i can't make it cause of my GAY LESSONS. but aww, YOU KNOW MY SPIRIT LINGERS ON right :) shall loan my luck again to y`all. ONE DAY ! will be praying, so no worries alright <3 yes have faith in yourselves.

love yq

ps/ STOP FEELING EMO! :)
pps/ i hope shiquan's feeling LESS BLUE-Y now :) cheeer up yo! <3

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

dreaded school, but it turned out well.
talked t most of th girls in class :) and gotta know some really interesting stuffs like how most of them are in relationships. INTERESTING
anws, yea i feel pretty much ACCOMPLISHED today, take that! haha
i did my math, aren't you proud of me!
& it rained so heavily today. my HEAVY BAG is giving me major back and shoulder problem. i feel as though i'm slouching. ): NOOO-
okays it aches now. OH WELLS.
anws, life's been great. <3>I AM TRULY BLESSED, love you guys <3

love, yq

ps/ NEO's ( N-E-A-L ) sucha faggot! tsk :) i'm gettting used to it already
pps/ i would be lying, if i said i didn't care & i dont wanna talk to you
have a little faith will you?
ppps/ CANT WAIT FOR THURSDAY TO BE OVER ! 4PM ! i need to rest. i am tired.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

hello.i shant talk about school here, since there' nothing much t talk about either. so yea-
went home with clarence tday, cause he's going t jurongeast for movie. tsk! hahaha while the rest of my classmates went KAP. i'm not being anti-social or whatsoever, but i just wanna go home, must be the P. dangs
well, walked in around popular browsing for books to read. was tempted t buy some books but, na-uh~ just remembered i still had some unread books from last year. shall finish those before spending money. I SHOULD SAVE. & then i went home. yes home, imma good girl. but ironically, we actually skipped dr KUEH's lesson. omgosh- evil ! but the whole class skipped it cause it was amazing race -_- gosh-
while i was doing some reflecting on the train and on the way home.
i remembered some stuffs someone told me. ( i've got really good memory ) ANYWAYS- isn't it nice to have a friend or someone to remind you to be yourself and not trying to be otherwise? like how you tried to 'fit in', ' accomodating to others' , ' doing something you dont like' . well, its always good to have someone who appreciates you for who you are and not who you're trying to be. or who he/she wants you to be.
as for me, i love who i am. i love my friends for who they are. despite those imperfections, at least a genuinesmile&abucketoflove can cover the flaws.( if you get what i mean ) because i'm not perfect either.
when you look at the world in a totally different perspective, you'll find that there are so much more reasons for you to smile. really- when you think that your life is so screwed just bcause someone bitched about you or whatsoever, always remember, "when life zigs, zag" :D
& i really miss harmony06 and cchms, i love my school !
i dont mind another 4 years in chungcheng, even thought its a cheeeena place. but love's an international language. can't wait to see you guys again. DARLINGS! awwwww~ hahahahaha i know you guys missed me too. if you're thinking, nooo i dont miss yq, STOP LIVING IN SELF DENIAL cause you know you missed me. ! heh heh.

alright, can't believe i typed so much when i was suppose t do a LITTLE update on my life. which is pretty much, boring now- since i dread school and everyone's busy :) right, shan't whine.
bye loves. <3!

ps/ you're the motivation, now&always.
thank you -

I'M GONNA WAKE UP EARLY TO RUN TMR .

-GO Yq!

Monday, April 23, 2007

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haha, my sis is sooo freaking retarded. i've got no comments-
=D i'm not so mean t edit it, she did. like how spastic please. hahaha
so funny-

I HATE P. ):
its making me feel sick( not literally ) and bad ! tsk-
anws, you know how much i dread school by infering from my post, BELOW
it was alright, just tht i skipped an hour of IPC lecture cause it was useless, kinda
left with clarence, HAHA. tsktsk, bad company-
well gotta know some of th classmates better, like BRYAN FINALLY TALKED
and neo's really funny too. we played truth or dare, 1st time i got truth, then a dare. it was so freaking stupid. i had to ask this guy for his name, and his name is ALFRED! its stupid. then in the freaking LT. neo had to shout so loudly, " SHE HAS A CRUSH ON YOU " i was like, " NO WAY~ noooooo " . so embarassing-
went home with penny, she's a nice person ^^
i'm tired - thank god tmr lesson starts at 11pm. and it ends at 4pm.
i hope it ends early, cause i think its practical! HAHAHAHAHA

have a little faith <3
LOVEyou.

ps/ i love each and everyone of you! you(s) know who you(s) are :D

Sunday, April 22, 2007

today's sunday, I LOVE SUNDAY :)
started the day by reading emo TIMES, about the massacre-thing at VT.
alright, its damn sad D: & quite freaky, like how some normal looking people can do such an act.
then went to church, with jere steph nic & ivan
nothing much, went tekka again.
then headed t nafa cause jere has his rehearsal thing.
saw lots of people, stayed at backstage during the whole presentation
XQ CAME! :D hahaha, was quite bored, had fun teasing peiyan and randy. doing lots of lame stuffs.
jere's performance was quite good ^^
before that his hands were damn cold, then after he finish playing his hands became warm. no comments. i'm being random again
had dinner at sakae spent like almost 90bucks there. got our VIP card already :) - went home <3

-sometimes i wonder if its real. that surge of happiness running down my spine. that stupid feeling, that i have recently. omgosh, and yes its only recently that i felt it. weird- oh wells~ i should stop being sucha troublesome girl as what xq said. i think i do <3 i l y

ps/ I DONT WANNA SLEEP CAUSE I DONT WANNA WAKE UP KNOWING THT I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL D: !
pps/ ): i broke my necklace again. like seriously, i'm only left with a pathetic few. -HINT HINT- haha, right just kidding. dangs! me and my itchy hands. tsk~!

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

"When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way"
- a nice song :)

even though i dont really like my maid sometimes. cause i think she hates me -_- haa
but oh wells, she's nice and crazaye most of the time and feeds me with goood food. clears my table, make my bed. treat us to pizzas. update me on the lastest hongkong gossips. minus the time when she would keep me waiting outside th door for 30 mins cause she's bathing and refuse t open th door( i was too lazy t bring my keys out ), pms-ing, screaming at us.
i still hope that you'll be alright.
kinda worried about her health, cause she just came back from a medical checkup and the doctors did some x-ray stuffs. and say there's an infection somewhere and wanted her t go t th hospital but she dont wanna go, she says she'd rather go back t the phillipines. ):
dear god, please please make her better. Amen
- hope the prayers work then she'll be alright again. ^^ and start screaming her heads off -

sis brought back sinful chocs. !! sheeesh~
oh wells, imma happy girl <3>

-"studying" in th library with bestfriend now. I MISS MARINE PARADE LIBRARY :D

Thursday, April 19, 2007

so who am i kidding ?
but i'm holding back- bottled/
the way it is.

When you try your best but you dont succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you cant sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And i will try to fix you
High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And i will try to fix ~~you~~ me.

love, yq

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND <3

Thats my primary school bestfriends, well some of the usual gang :) {manhua liping xinhuan me}
we laughed at ourselves. how innocent we were. those childish and crazy stuffs we used to do together. then i thought, god has been so kind t me that in every stage of my life. i'm always blessed with friends that will make a difference in my life. friends that i know i'll treasure forever <3 bestfriend liping turned 17 today! walked her home then walked with manhua home. i almost forgot how this feeling is like, to have them around me almst everyday, having bestfriends living blocks away from you is fun & nice. <3 i love them all !

the retardedly-slow manhua, SERIOUSLY. sometimes i cant believe tht she was from nygh! but i loved her so <3>

总是忍不住寂寞掉下
眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心
短暂的晴天
随时
都可能
被阴狸收回
等待
有机会最坏也最
甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为
太怕失去你
所以连快乐里
都装满伤悲
你
不曾发觉
你总是用右手
牵着我
但是心却跳动
在左边
你和我之间
的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜
伸出
右手
想陪着你向前走
感受
你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深
爱你的我
想信你会了解
总在
埋怨过你的冷漠
之后
又急着说抱歉
仿佛
向疏远的你
乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果
有可能最美
也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许
太自由的你
心里面那个家
谁也不能回
我一直相信
总有一天
你会用左手
牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远
却会实现
心在同一边
就能够
听见
你说的
那句
我爱你
你一定
看的见

- its a song with a super nice lyrics which kinda reflects what i'm feeling. so like. yea, INFER. shant elaborate.

BYE!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

for a moment, i had th urge to shut this stupid blog down.
but i realise there's too many memories and i cant bear to delete this blog
then i tried restricting. and people complained, right min ru.
so, you know what. i'm not gonna talk about anything anymore.
i remember saying this some posts earlier. so like, yea
想一个人, 虽然this emptiness是难免的
the feeling of fear 也会因为this emptiness & arise.
但我也不想因为我的执著与任性造成了不必要的误会.
所以, i chose to '封闭' the so called reality and my 错觉 i suppose
"聼多一點,說少一點" will do everyone good.
& i know what to do now. that is, to shut up. & that means, stop saying those 有的没的
覺得不必要让the whole world know what i'm thinking.覺得那樣比較對
- bye

Monday, April 16, 2007

survived day one of school.
it was fun, my classmates are nice. shiquan badd chenchuan and some others are really nice too
oh and j's classmate is my classmate now, well dont really know him cause he dont hang out with us. and there are 2 acs guys too. my IPC lecturer was so damn funnny that badd and chenchuan were makng fun of him throught the lecture. anws its REALLY QUITE FUNNY.
after school went t look for xq at SP. :)
we talked! haha so funny and fun. yays
had dinner at foodcourt 4, please remind me not t eat ban mian ! haha so full ):
wells i DO NOT TAKE A LONG TIME TO FINISH MY FOOD!
& we were saying someone fainted at the audio school, damn funny
right xq? listen t th announcement tmr! hahahahahahhhhahahahahahhahaa
i dont get it, whats so fun about maple? OH WELLS~
i'm VERY TIRED , thank god school starts at 11am tmr
AND ITS SO FREAKING STUPID, cause i have 3 hours of IPC prac and 1 hour of IPC tutorial.
its just one subject! school ends at 4pm. :)
i hope tmr will be a better day .

i'm so freaking tired, feeling sick. i feel so cold all of a sudden ):
and my little bro is sick, bless him. mom got so worried. ANWS momma's back in s`pore with my UNCLE! yessss :D
i feel so sick of foood, i'm so not gonna eat anything tmr. maybe fruit juice.( save maaah-nee )
so like, see, i'm gonna die young ..

i will, because i believe. <3
love, yq

hello, this song cheered me up and made my day just before i was about to sleep.
so i hope that it'd bring you joy and perhaps a reason for you to smile everyday
life is beautiful, with you & you(s) :)
sometimes all you need is to loook around and you'll find the sunshine that will brighten your day, and guide you when you're lost.
the little-lest thing in life, is enough to make you laugh and smile, & go " life is beautiful, awww sweeetness ! " no wait, thats me.
you have no serious idea how easy i can laugh about the slightest-thing
but at the same time get affected by some silly-old-stuffs that just-so-happen to buzz into my ear or smthing. CONTRADICTING - life's full of it, and i'm living it.
thank you xueqi for making me realise somethings i thought i knew but actually i dont. :)
oh and that sakae birthday treat, thank you !
& i love you <3

Dear GOD,
give me strength to contine this journey.
let me believe
in it, just like how i've always believed in you.
let me say i-am-strong,
without feeling the weakness i've been trying so hard to hide. & let me walk
by faith, not by sight.
in jesus name i pray.
Amen

Sunday, April 15, 2007

this is so funny, picture of the day :D

unsuccessful attempt t take the picture

like finally :) nic xq me ivan

today's a fun day. i'm exhausted both mentally and physically.

i dont know what to say, so i shant talk about it anymore.

all i could say is that i feel trapped.

& i'm overwhelmed by the emotions, that i feel as though its drowning me.

its not as if i did not try, to kinda let go of everything...

at sakae, we started talking about our future plan.

me nic xq and ivan, wanna get a private apartment or something and live tgether

it'd be so fun.it seemed so crazy yet quite realistic. god knows whether i'll get married or whatsoever. thats very far fetched i guess. i wanna get a house, AND A GERMAN SHEPHARD. 10 years down the road, really dont know what will happen. will i even be in singapore? will things change? i hope not. thn we started talking crazy stuffs like who's gonna marry who. omgosh its damn crazy. they got kinda horny. -_-especially at that particular topic. RIGHT NIC

haha. well, too many things i wanna say but i cant type it here. and i dont know how to say either. oh wells~ school's starting tmr. wish me luck. until 6pm. GREAT- maameeemooo.

dont know what to expect, so i shant EXPECT ANYTHING .

i'm not emo/depressed, hahaha still happy. but thinking about some stuffs :)

is it when you get older, you'll start thinking alot? i hope not, cause i think i'll just die thinking.

jere, you idiot, stop playing that stupid maple bcause its making u stupid. AND YOU'RE GONNA BE DAMN SICK. oh wells~

bye-

ps/ was just thinking, since people change and things change, will i still say i love you like i loved you today? i realise i'm so weak tht i get affected by people, friends and everyone so easily. oh man, stay strong, yea i will <3

what is it that i really want?
actually i dont really know and i dont really wanna expect something .
well, the more you expect the worse it feels when things just dont go your way.
so what do i want?
what should i do to make things right?
well, there are still many more reasons to smile and i thank god for that.
my life is pretty ~~perfect~~
& its sunday !

ps/ REST WELL, you !

Saturday, April 14, 2007

my juniors are like the cutest and sweetest bunch ever :D they did that for huanglaoshi <3

today's quite a fun day, with bestfriend

first met her at ps, watched FREEDOM WRITERS, its damn nice :D

& then we walked around and went to SAKAE. didnt eat alot and we were shocked by the bill

hahaha, then we were saying "OMG this is the cheapest bill i ever had at sakae, 10bucks+ for both of us. but i swear we ate quite alot already -_- "

decided t go shopping, but we bought nothing

went over t somerset, walked at cine and heeeren. nothing much

singapore's a pretty boring place. so we were like " eh i think i've went every place with you already...what else can we do? "

we went to KBOX, that was our last resort. we were DARN BORED.

oh at cine, omgosh this british teenager tgether with his friends kinda 'stalked' on us, i wont use th word stalk but i just cant find a better word to use. just seriously, when we were in th lift one of th guys tapped my shoulder then th other one tapped again. and then one of them reached out and brushed against...argh( dont know if it was intentional or on purpose )... and tapped ly's shoulders too. i was like wth ! D: ! so what if youre a british, feel like slapping th guys seriously.

anws after that we didnt really know what happened. alright, we went t sing.~

did stupid stuffs again, recorded some OMGOSH hahahahhahaha irritating sounds =P

oh and funny stuffs happened. and dangs! KARMA KARMA KARMA please.

i was stirring happily and th honey lemon spilled abit on th floor i didnt really care and continue stirring cause it was kbox premises LOL. i asssume someone would clean it up. then just when i was about t leave, i realise my slippers were wet. DANGS! the honey lemon spilled on my slipper. D: haha, then we went home. cause she has t attend her grandpa's birthday dinner or smthing . pooor me had t take the train alone, well used t it already. (:

tmr's sunday, i like sundays, somehow

& omgosh, school's FINALLY gonna start. hope everything goes well.( cross fingers )

i loved you so <3

-yq

maybe what my dad said was right. i should grow up and leave the comfort zone
i feel spoilt bcause i always get what i want ( almost ) like this laptop i'm using. it cost quite alot and they still bought it for me. throughout these few months since O levels is over, my friends have been working and what have i been doing? - i literally slacked my whole "holiday"
i did nothing constructive, i did nothing to be proud of. and thus i gained nothing
when i need money i just ask from my dad, and he'll just give cause i'll start whining.
whenever i go out, he'l ask me if i finished the allowence he gave, 8/10 times, i would say yes and he will give me more and add on saying, " learn how t control ..."
guess i've beeen taking this for granted and what he said really knocked some sense into me.
hello yq, 17 years of your life, you've beeen living on your parents. its time you should start saving which means lesss indulgence, lesss sakae trips, less cabs, less starbucks, less movies, lesss shoppping ( UNTIL I SAVE UP TO A DECENT AMOUNT then maybe i'lll consider ) haha easier said than done, think i've been telling myself to save like, A HUNDRED TIMES, but it never last for more than 2 weeeks.
i feeel like crying now, not bcause i'm feeeling emo. not bcause of you
but bcause my dad works so hard and i have to be sucha spoilt daughter of his and spend so much of his money. you wouldnt wanna know how much i send per month. he comes home late everyday, 365days a year, the only time he rests will be CNY period, but thats for 3 days only. so like, 362 days working full time in the shop of his. many times, i would just stay up late just to say " hi dadddy, you're back " and then i'll go and sleep. or use the toilet excuse just to say that.
my mom, i know i've been sucha bitch tht she wish she never had this daughter. never failed to piss her off whenever she's in singapore. and you know what, i only get to see her ONCE a month, for about one week or less than that. and i have to freakingly piss her off each time. sometimes i just didnt mean to raise my voice, i didnt mean to start a quarrel with her. and there were times she broke down infront of me and i didnt know what to do. and my sis and bro had to comfort her, and i would just stand there wishing i was braver, i wish i knew how to express whatever concerns i have, i wish i knew how to express how worried i am. but i always failed to do so. what a lousy daughter right. she sacrificed time with her kids, seriously me and my sis were the lucky ones in the family, sorta, well ever since my brother was in primary 1? mom has beeen sent by her company t be th branch manager of th company in thailand. and this explains why we dont see her that often. she lives alone in this apartment there, really dont know how she survived there alone. thats my mom, she's forever putting on a brave front.
thats my mom and dad. well i couldnt ask for a better one, bcause they've been the bestest mom and dad i could ever wish for. the sacrifice, the love, the hope for a better future. the hardwork, the pain, the misses, all for us. i mean, sometimes i wonder how selfless they can be. i think mom&dads in the world are almost the same, most will live not for the sake of themselves but for their kids. well, i dont think i'll ever know how selfless parents can be until i've become a parent myself. BUT, that would be a LOOOONG time from now.
thank you for everything daddy&mommy <3
seriously, i wanna do more, not for myself but for everyone.
not bcause i need to do, but bcause i want to do.
nt becaue i'm not blessed enought, but bcause i wanna share the blessings that i have with all those that needs it.
not bcause i'm not loved, but bcause i wanna learn to love by loving.
right, so much for typing and tearing at the same time, its so retarded.
goood night

love,
yq <3

ps/ get well soon! ^^

Friday, April 13, 2007

"This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life" ^^

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i dont know what to write & blog about. bcause life has beeen the same
and i dont wanna bore you guys with my whinings and stuffs like that. :D
oh man im feeling weird, like seriouly my stomach and nose is giving me problems
i feeel like puking. OMG D: how nice....
oh wells!
much love, yq <3

"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it."

"I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you."

Thursday, April 12, 2007

at the chillout place, dont you think the colours are pretty and it resembles a heart. <3

jamie wulaoshi me and jo <3!

ps/ i thnk i should go for plan B since A failed right at the moment it started(wait what's plan B? ahhh ) . haha this is quite retarded but what to do, you tell me ): i'm just trying not to fall deeper, thats all .
pps/ xueqi just admit it, you know i rock so dont live in denial my dear girl :D heeheeeee

-
i've got a sweet tooth.
and i dont care if i get fatter or whatsoever, i promise i'll like RUN NEXT WEEK and starve myself. i wanna have desserts, i want cheeesecakes !
hate that show on channel 5 now, sweets for sweet.
its making me feeel sinful hungry and the CRAVINGS.
-the secret garden <3
da bombs/

hello, as you can see, I WAS BORED. & thus, the pictures.

edited some pictures taken earlier this year. hehe

tsk tsk, take care! <3

i'm sleeeeeeepy AGAIN, omg going to sleeep like now.

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so like i just woke up from my AFTERNOON NAP.

it was raining :D i loooooooove sleeeping when its raining

thn guess what has been ringing in my head since i woke up.

Ghost Of Me And You by BBmak.

alright, i cant run even i want to now cause its RAINING.

anyways, JENNY i know youre reading this. but i'm NOT being too nice to you, bcause you really do :D and i misss you like hell lot, so when you're back in s`pore PLEASE PLEASE call me, we LACK pictures tgeter. except for our class photo in sec 1 and 2, i dont thnk i have any pictures with you! :( haha alrights, misses <3

愛總是複雜對吧? i guess so, that explains my confusions sometimes. come to thnk of it, maybe when all these pieces of jigsaws are pieced together, i'll see the greatest picture. but it takes alot of patience and time to piece each and every puzzle together, trying t find th right one to match. it reallly takes time. and along the way when you ge distracted, it'd hinder your progression. sometimes you get so irritated bcause you just cant find the right piece of jigsaw that you wish that you didnt have to do this. But when you slow down your pace and take your time, sometimes you have to look around you and you'll find the right ones that match and thus, forming the most beautiful puzzle you have ever seen.

gosh, i dont know wth i'm typing oh wells.

love, yq

hey! i'm awake now ! woke up quite early tday BCAUSE...
and i couldnt go back t sleep, ok fine, quite early=10am
talked t xq last night =D you're an idiot ! hehehe talked ALOT i think.
that conscious and sub consious thing ^^
& i realise i'm like, so smart !
well, gotta know some stuffs :D
which kinda make me a happy girl, but dont know how loong this is gonna last before i start feeeling those weird emotions again. but i'll try not to think too much cause yea, its bad for health. HAHA
oh oh, someone's TRYING TO SUNTAN now. so funnny! hahahahahahaha
like seriously, the first time i hear ppl saying this. omgosh~
anways i dont know what to say now, maybe LATER.
shall watch the teeeeeveeeee like now :D
bye!

nice lyrics.
雨下好乱半个夜晚
你不在身边怎么晚安
天好蓝要和你一起看
起风时由你来温暖心事
简单一句说完要我们永远不会分开
有眼泪也因为你灿烂
你微笑因为我盛开
要谢谢爱
让你在我身边守护我的未来
有多少美丽奇迹你手心里全都记载
好期待
要谢谢爱
让我学会宽容学会体谅关怀
像阳光陪着大海
是平静还是澎湃
都是爱

good night <3
love, yq

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

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HEY ! just came back, okays not really. from dinner @ sakae(again) we should seriously try smthing new. :D anws after tht we walked around . did alot of stupid stuffs again, kept laughing. i want that patrick la (HINT HINT) okays then urms... walked talked and walked around...my laptop is heavy, i insist it is ! haha ^^ oh ya, then went home after tht. <3

ps/ i cant believe plan A failed right after i typed. AHHH so tell me how?

pps/ feeeeeeling sick D: kept sneezing, must be you're dusty la. thats why you wanna sneeze too. tsk! haha

----------------------------------------------------

i'm like alone in the library now, feeling random.

much as i looooooooooooooooooooooove ttty,
maybe i should like stty or something.
okay lets seee how loong can this last..
tired of making decisions, tired of taking initiatives.
but guess what, thats life D:
pretty pathetic huh. but hey, seriously i'm not whining about life alrights
i love my life the way it is. <3
those friendships and th trusts, you have no idea how much it means to me, truck/lorry/bus lots!
i hate to admit how it feeels different, as though its evolving into something else.
this uncertainty- you know how it feeeels? do you?
i really think i do, and this isnt gonna work out i think, slaps! i'm thinking too much
oh wells, i sld just TRY to preoccupy myself , why? hmmmm bcause i said so <3
anws if you think i'm talking about you, you're right, if you think i'm NOT talking about you, you're right. wait, WHO ARE YOU?
hehe wait, guess wht, maybe its goood to be raining for one day and sunny on the other day
on sunny days i shall b OUTSIDE, enjoying my life, beaching or whatsoever
on rainy days, i'll stay at home to do work study mug or you know, just THINK about what you've done. its always gooood to do some self reflections, sometimes ^^
it makes you feeel, yes hate t admit it. EMO. yet lucky, happy and everything.
i love it when it rains. ( JENNY ARE YOU READING THIS? HOPE YOU ARE! CAUSE I MISSS YOU SO MUCH )
-SHIT PLAN A FAILED. oh wells :D imma happy girl. <3

( OMG I'M NOT FEELING EMO, THANK YOU =D )

"Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us can
want, is more time. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to
let go." - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.

- found this somewhere ^^

i hate the effing weather. its humid and there's NO SUN. omg
anws just went for NP's orientation thing, people are nice.
well, saw SOME familiar faces like th cello guy from dont know which school. he was like HEY!haha and saw hongwei! omg another primary school mate. well he recognized me first so i was like starring again. uhuh~ made new friends, really nice people. like pearlyn nisa sulimah tht nice girl tht lent me pen and th other guy which i forgot this name.so like its quite fun and nice ther. at least i dont feeeel weird. :)
right, didnt go t th beeeach D: quite sad but oh wells
so i'm typing this down. oh and bought this white lab coat. HAHA cooooool. and damn it, spent like 7 bucks on a stupid goggle, i think tht aunty cheated us, cause it says there tht those with specs dont require goggles in th lab .
meeting sarah for lunch ltr , since she's at IJ.
wells, DINNER. hahaha i dont know. i'm gonna like go shoppping alone ltr or sit at some library or cafe using th computer. oh wells, better "ENJOY" whatever holiday i have now before school term starts. i think there's alot of stuffs to learn and mug. omgosh i MISSS muggggging!!
HAHA .
some stuffs i cant type here, i find it weird. OH WELLS i alawys end up typing it eventually i realise. DANGS guess its time i learn t keeep some stuffs to myself. or whatever secrets or feeelings i have will be known to all. WHICH I-DONT-WANT-IT-TO-HAPPEN.
hahahahaha there are surprisingly more guys than girls i think in my course either that or its equal. kinda used to having more girls than guys in my class already. its always like tht since like, sec 1? hahaha

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

yesterday i felt like a greeeen apple if you get what i mean.
hello bestfriend i missed you <3
( if you're reading this that is, cause you're like SUPER BUSY D: )
cant wait t see you on sat man! LOVE YOU!
today, went out with HENG MIN RU.
cause i was feeling so bored at home and i realy wanna watch a movie
so we met at cityhall and caught BECAUSE I SAID SO.
its a super "corny horny morny" and hilarious movie. I DONT KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TO GOOOO, O-MGOSH, OMG OMG OMG " haha! but you know it reminds me of me and my mom and those quarrels tht we always have. hahahahahhaa stil love my mom though she's like, abit cranky and pms-y and naggy at times. :D
anws ru's sucha PIG. she's forever eating.
so i was like " eh lets just get the nachos,popcorn,hotdog combo PLUS 4 CHEEESY DOGS"
HAHA! but NO- we had a nachos and 4 cheeeesy dogs. <3
thn she had her KFC and i had my SUBWAY.
I PROMISE TO SAVE UP OKS! FROM NEXT WEEEEEK ONWARDS, PLEASE REMIND ME AND STOP ME FROM SPENDING ! I NEED TO SAVE AND GOOO SHOPPPING like SERIOUSLY, i'm SO BROKE!
( ly i bet you're like laughing now cause i said this like last year and it was suppose t be my new year resolution. and OH! what happened to the "piggy bank" plan tht we have, and our monthly shopping trips, ITS APRIL OMG! ) haha-
naaaaah~ this time i'll realllly save! oh man D:!
min ru bought this white flats and eyed on this white halter top .
OMG haha! and she was suppose t save too.! tsk tsk!
alrights. really dont know what t say already. but i love going out with her too. <3

tmr's tht orientation thing, i'm damn scared cause i'm like ALONE. seriously alone, don even know what t expect now. thank god its only from 9-12noon.
thn after tht going out! yays ^^
OKAYS. hahaahhhahaha wish me luck!
<3 love y`all BOOOOOO!
-yq

\you know why am i still here?
bcause HENG MIN RU asked me t accc her until she feeels sleeepy and wanna sleeep
and guesss what we did.
OMG we played stupid gaMES. bcause my webcam refused to work at this hour so yea. HAHA we cant webcam and entertain ourselves. hehe

so like the conversation was like this.

Ru. says:
i'm so gonna try slping after this
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
YES
Ru. says:
OMG
Ru. says:
we took 23 minutes
Ru. says:
hahaha
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
OMG
Ru. says:
WOAH
Ru. says:
i am SO PROI
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
WTH
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
aha
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
lol
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
the most bo liao person wins wad
Ru. says:
eh
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
thought u say this game is for boliao ppl
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
AHAHHAA!
Ru. says:
we completed singapore in 23 mintues
Ru. says:
sia!
Ru. says:
and they said lee kuan yew built it up
Ru. says:
took from malaysia
Ru. says:
singapore belongs to ME AND YOU!
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
OMG
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
haha
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
youre SOOOOO LAME
---------------------------------
& we continued with UNO which i lost ...and this is how the conversation goes.
Ru. says:
i am the PRO
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
WTH
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
like WHATEVER MAN
/ ♥ Yiqing, i think i do <3 這一秒快樂最重要 says:
haha! =p
Ru. says:
haha i told i always win!
Ru. says:
haha
Ru. says:
u wanna know why?
Ru. says:
because my surname is HENG and my bf's name got WIN
Ru. says:
HAHAHA

like seriously SO EVIL , maybe i sld get a bf thats called money, thn i'll be rich, hahahaha NAAAAH~

- but i love her still <3

ps : now, i think i really do. omg <3
wish you knew how much i yearn to look into your eyes and see you loooking back
wish you knew tht i really and truly do.
wish you knew how little stuffs and stuffs you say made my day
wish you knew how much your smile means to me.
OH WELLS.

Monday, April 09, 2007

omg, my timetable is SO HORRILE i tell you
so like, it starts with physiology from 9am to 10am and then
microbiology from 10am to 12noon and then an hour break
after that MICROBIOLOGY AGAIN, from 1pm to 4pm!!
and inorganic and physial CHEMISTRY from 4pm to 6pm. OMG

TUESDAY
dont need t go school that early, HAPPY ^^
11am to 2pm inorganic and physical chemistry
and then the same thing from 3pm to 4pm!

WEDNESDAY
10am to 11am microbiology
12 to 1pm physiology
3pm to 5pm MATHEMATIC, OMG! mathssssss D:

Thursday
9am to 10am Inorganic and physical Chemistry
10 to 11am microbiology
11-12 MATHEMATICS
2-4pm MATHEMATICS AGAIN. omg D: !!

Friday, HMMMMMMMMMMMMS i got no school ? hahaha cool.
hehe.

自己一个人, stay strong! bcause这样就够了, so be contented !
no wonder my econs lecturer said tht we have unlimited human wants.
read 之寧's blog, and i felt a whole lot better.
well, she never fails to make realise some stuffs and changes my perspective at things.
i realise 我忘了珍惜, so from today onwards, i'll remind myself to treasure everything and everyone around me. so i wont regret, at least i know 我曾经珍惜, wait no, 我还珍惜 its just that, you know... haha
我是不會在不必要的時候忍哭的. 因爲那個時候至少感動能讓我記得我相信的世界
oh! 還有,真希望自己開心的時候也能带给别人一些快樂,那怕快樂并非永恆.這一秒快樂最重要 :D
"就算是整個世界把我拋棄
至少快樂傷心我自己決定" 而我選擇快樂- (at least for now.)

saw this somewhere. 幸福,就是感受那小小的滿足,那怕只是一顆糖...this is also how i kinda feel. <3
shall end here, i know my chinese sucks but yea. hahaha

love,yq

i'm getting irritated very easily nowadays.
i'm hungry now bcause i skipped lunch.
i was bored so i made another video. dont ask abt th other i did the other time
haha, tht was really, dumb and i'm not gonna show anyone.
omgosh in this particular video, i know i look damn spastic. oh wells.
i changed alot throughout the years
yes ly, I KNOW I LOOK DAMN TOOT LAST TIME and you dont have t remind me again. hehe

- for bff, ly!
hahahahahahhaaha

p/s : trying t be ahap( FYI, as happy as possible ), you too alrights.
love you.

i'm hungry yet sleeepy. okays i shall sleeep. bye!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

cheer up! to those that are...well, feeling depressed/down etc.
I LOVE YOU ALL <3
i'm so confused now, why are you always mixing up my emotions
i feeel so silly and retarded all of the sudden, so much for IT.
IT is so irritating, bcause the deeper IT is, the harder you can get outta IT
but IT can be reallllllllllllly nice too, it mkes me feel like the happiest girl sometimes. i IT and hate IT. in case youre wondering why it makes no sense, haha its for me to know and for you to find out. <3

-i really do.
for nuts sake, i dont know since when it bcame like this.
why, when i know tht i'm might get hurt.
why, when i know tht it wasnt really right to start with
why, when i know tht it may not happen
why, when i know tht its just my pathetic fairytale.
omg, its gettting really retarded, shall stop here.

hello, i'm feeling a wheeeeeeeeeee bit better already
thanks to dearest alfred who showed me this game, super cute i remember playing it when i was in lower sec but i totally forgot about it.
really sweet and nice game. <3
http://www.ferryhalim.com/orisinal/ ! hahahaha, it made my day hopefully it'd make yours too.

- keep smiling, i know i'm spastic but oh wells HAHA. so much for cam whoring.

sometimes, we'll just get carried over by the temptations and greeed that we forgot how lucky or blessed we are. we forgot how significant a smile is. we forgot how a smile can make someone's day. we forgot how a smile can cheeer someone up. or even a simple " hey are you feeling alright? cheeer up ok! " can make my day.
omg i know i look kuku with tht freaking hair or perhaps i really do loook kuku but oh wells. keep smiling people, and yes me . oh and you too
i'm sleepy and 'm going t sleep like now......

-what i'm kinda feeeling now.

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

ytd's post was gone, typed so much and i lost connection suddenly, and its all gone. too lazy t type again. but ytd was a very fun day <3
next, today. its easter sunday went to church but didnt attend the easter service well bcause hmmmmm lets just say tht place is filled and theres no more room for us.
its so up and down today, sorry nick. i didnt mean t do tht it wasnt really on purpose and i really wasnt pms-ing. but thank god he was alright later.
but i wasnt. i really really cant control my emotions, i cant keep my own emotions to myself. i tried, but i always fail in the end.
sorry jere for... hmmmm everything.
sorry to ivan for dao-ing you.
just dont know whats happening tday, first i listened to say goodbye on the bus. and i started to tear abit cause i miss harmony alot and those memories just flashed back. those fun and laughters we had. but life has to go on and we have to move on too. i knw, but i'm just you know, MISSING THEM A HELL LOT.
and thn when we were at PS, i was whining about them going t th arcade, didnt wanna go. but we still went bcause i know they really wanna go. and there isnt anything to do there. hopefully the atmosphere will lighten and everyone will be happy again. cause when we were at starbucks, it was , wrong. yep and i felt bad bcause i think its my fault for making everyone so moooodless.
arcade was fun, lost my ring while playing tht machine.
after tht nick went for lesson, me j and ivan walked around.
and i started to feeeel it again.
you know what, if you know me, you'll know how much i hate HATE not being happy.
and i'm not perfect, much as i love t be happy, there are times when i'll be really down. like waaaay down, and i just couldnt help it. i tried to cheer myself up.haha
and i didnt mean t walk faster and thn walk slower when you walked faster. sorry
perhaps i wanted some time alone. i didnt talk alot today, didnt laugh as much as usual. i'm quite tired, not physically but emotionally drained. i know i have no excuse to be emotionally tired, bcause urmmm.. actually i dont even know why i'm feeling "DRAINED", seriously.
so its a " yiqing's-wanna-be-alone-day" today.
sigh, i wanna like laugh all day, but somehow i cant seem t cheeer myself up.
this sucks, i think i suck tday bcause i've made everyone around me feel so i-dont-know-how-to-say-but-it-sucks, so much tht i think they're irritated by me.
there's alot of feeelings within me now. and there's no way i can put it into words.
i promise i'll try to be happy again asap, and i'm reallly sorry for today.
you know, i just dont feel me, and it really scares me, bcause it has been quite a while ever since i last felt this way. i'll cheeer up real sooon!
I'M FEELING REALLY BAD FOR TREATING YOU GUYS LIKE THIS TODAY.
POOOF EMO-NESS SCREW YOU.

realise i've been constantly looking for a pillar of support, i wish i was strong enough so i wont have t rely on someone else t cheer me up, so that i knew what t do when i'm feeling so sucky, when i'm waaaay down. its esier t cheeer others than cheeering yourself up isnt it? hoho i love cheering ppl up cause somehow i feel this sense of accomplisment when i see them smile. <3 dear god, please make me a stronger person... and a happier one too. amen

love, yq

Saturday, April 07, 2007

oh man i kept thinking tt school's gonna start next week but its NEXT NEXT WEEK. so dots okays hahahahahahahaha!
p/s: my maid's sick no one t coook lunch, too lazy t cook myself so i'm not gonna eat. BOOOOO haha oh wells!

hellllo.
just woke up not :P haha! and i'm getting realllly bored
anws xq yes, I'LL RESERVE NEXT WEEKEND FOR YOU! and we'll go t th beeach <3!
you better be alright okays! okay alright? haha
meeting nick later for movie! wheee i wanna watch freedom writers/bcause i said so/sunshine/23 omg so many movies ): haha! yays
i'm HOT, literally, so hot that i burnt myself -_-
dangs, my skin is burning hahaa oks it'd be alright.

:D what to do, i was BORED haha
thank god <3

hello back from a tiring yet fun day
woke up EARLY in the morning like 830am!
BUT joel tan made me wait for ONE FREAKING HOUR at jurong east mrt
like how nice D: i was pissed ! tsk tsk! but i was alright later. haha
met him thn went over habourfront and bought fooood, thn took monorail to sentosa, ALOT OF PEOPOLE. met JUNIORS there :D
so funny, cause tzw didnt allow them t get into th water initally cause of some reports of diseases spreading through crab bites or smthing la
but in the end EVERYONE GOT WET. HAHA!
played in the water, ATTEMPTED to suntan, yea i got burnt.
it was fun ^^ thn omg i was so freaking tired after tht and we stilll had to look for a stupid toilet t change and bathe. -_-
after tht i went to the beach alone and sat there, listening to music and well, stone-ing , ANOTHER ATTEMPT TO SUNTAN. ahha!
it was really nice sitting there alone :D
but, FYI im not a LONER, hate being alone sometimes though
oh oh! you know, mr goh came ! ^^
after tht wnt back habour front, DAMN FUNNY, they were like eh! when we left sentosa, junyuan just reached, so damn funny we were like laughing our asses off please. HAHA!
thn when junyuan came, WE SCREAMED AND RAN AWAY! omg! haha i think those ppl thought we're crazy or something. dont know why we did tht for.
they went marina bay for steamboat, OMG JOEL i'm so sorry hahaha
i went over to novena t meet jeremy and ivan at hans!
hahaha, had this really REALLLY hard chicken thing, and i couldnt cut it properly. haha! okoks dont laugh at the way i hold my knife and fork, evil. haha
thn after tht jeremy took out his qin and started practicing
AT HANS, hahaa!
talked and talked..... laughed alot
and we saw a cat and a MOUSE there OMG, hah it looks like a rat but rats are uglier, times 10. hahaha!
oh and someone wanted me t blog abt how i got freaked out by a stupid tissue.
then went home! hahaha
when i reached home, my sis was like "EH still SO LATE THEN REACH HOME AH, NEVER SEE TH FLYERS NEAR THE LIFT?"
me " HUH , where got flyers?"
sis " aiya, some girls got molested and they looking for witness near our area "
me " OMG haha "
quite freaky, but dont think anything's gonna happen
oh anws, SAW THIS GAY BANGALA COUPLE ON TH TRAIN HOME TODAY, haha they're so freaking OPENm shant go into th details but you get the idea =P
hehe- okoks guess thats all for tday, photos later.

love you <3

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yes yes it'd be over soon<3! ENDURE! love u
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hehe its EASTER, L-O-L <333!
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Friday, April 06, 2007

hellllo, its so freakng boring.
school's gonna like, start soooon
anticipating it yet i feel scared all of a sudden.
right right, laugh for all you want, i'm scared D:
like some kids going t school for th first time. OMG. ahha
so funny. =x
i miss my hair, like so much D:
please grow faster and i promise i wont cut you until next year!
i'll just trim it and layer it OCCASIONALLY okays ^^
so please please x 100000 grow! HAHA
life's so boring nowadays, ever since after syf i got nothing to do
at least during tht period, i can go back t cchms t see my juniors
at least i've got a life then, now i'm back to -nolife- mode AGAIN.
aha how sad, but thank god school's starting .
see the irony? oh wells!
yq just gotta stay strong, and i hope min ru will cheer up too
i love you girl, l-o-v-e ! and you ARE SPECIAL alrights, not someone insignificant.
<333!

-yq

Thursday, April 05, 2007

i'm bored, thts the m&ns i ate ytd and the banana i ate today
omg, sooo bored. sldnt have finish tht drama so early ): !

omg :D hehe, jeremy wong! see i told you ^^ yays happy.
and congrats t th others xq ivan and jake for gettting the results they want
and nick :D if you're reading this, hope you're alright already! cheeer up alright, we're always there for you oks? i belive you can do it like a million times better
the next time round. jiayou! dont give up <3

woke up at 1Pm tday =x
hehe continue the drama, and i just finished it
its damn funny and sweeeeeet .
hahahahaha sometimes i wish my life was like th one in the drama .
BUT hahaha yea i know, you'll be like "IN YOUR DREAMS "
hehe, anws i dont know what t update now, will write more later or smething ^^

H-A-P-P-Y HAPPY :)

omg its 5 am
i'm on my bed typing this...
i cant sleep zzz ):
OMG~ sigh ended up watching drama disc after disc.
gosh, my sisters' gonna wake up for schoool sooon. hahahaha
and i'm still awake.

love
- yq
drama-rama-fama-lama
<3

omg its 330AM.
still watching that korean drama. hehe
:D im gonna be some panda or smthing tmr, either tht or i'll sleeeeep till like 2pm?
think i;m gonna be sick sooon already. hahaha i ate the whole big packet of M&Ns
OOOOOMG~ so i didnt have any dinner tday, and now i'm HUNGRY.!
tsk. cant eat now cause its the middle of the night.
i spent like 6 hours doing that video which i dont think anyone will see it bcause its so stupid. omg HAHA. nvm~ i'm jst bored.
:D sunflowers <3

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Heaven by your side

You and I, cannot hide
The love we feel inside
The words we need to say

I feel that I
Have always walked alone
But now that you're here with me
There'll always be a place that I can go

Suddenly our destiny
Has started to unfold

When you're next to me
I can see the greatest story
Love has ever told

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

How can it be true?

Somebody to keep the dream alive

The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise
That I found my place in heaven by your side

I could fly, when you smile
I'd walk a thousand miles to hear you
Call my name
Now that I have finally found the
one who will be there for me eternally
My everlasting sun

Suddenly our destiny has started
to unfold

When you're next to me I can
See the greatest story love has ever
told

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

How can it be true?

Somebody to keep the dream alive

The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side
That I found my place in heaven by
your side

Heaven by your side, heaven by
your side, heaven by your side

When you're next to me, I can see
The greatest story love has ever told

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

How can it be true?

Somebody to keep the dream alive

The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side

Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel

Heaven by your side

Somebody to keep the dream alive

The dream I found in you

I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me

But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side

ps/ yays i love this song <3 its damn nice :D
right, hahaha good night people
pps/ JEREMYWONG IF YOU'RE READING THIS THAT IS :D
good luck and all the best for your gradings, i'm sure you'll do just fine and you'll get the results that you want ! belive in yourself and belive in god ^^
have faith, you're jeremy wong pig rui lehs! HAHA what else can a pig can't do?
god bless <3 jiayou~! blahs i'm sure you have all the blessings and the luck in the world! haha
ppps/ video-ing ... :D

jake and xq's going for gradings like now :D omg! hehe jiayou <3
you know what! hehe i'm so thankful to be a part of cchmsco.
bcause its a love that i cant find anywhere else, its a bond so much stronger than any ionic or covalent bond. i love you guys
juniors, dont be tooo sad about the results, we cant change it
so just loook ahead, 2 years later we'll be back right, this time you guys can do it, bcause i know you all can. i'm so glad i didnt transfer outta cchms on the first day of school ( though i almost did, but too lazy to :P )

stay stronge and be stronger, we once believed in you, and we still do.
bcause cchmsco, orchestra number 31, is LOVE <3

XQ's officially lame-d omg :D
anws good luck to those taking gradings LATER, since its past 12am :P
XUEQI JAKE NICK AND IVAN! yays ^^
go go go <3 believe in yourself !
hehe.. baaas nothing much, i'm bored and my eyes are still very tired from th crying.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

cchmsco in action, 030407 <3

hello, thats alfred, super handsome and cute right :D

this was 2 years ago, AFTER SYF 210405

2 years later, today, 030407, after SYF <3

030407
i dont know why, but what happened 2 years ago happened again
but somehow its differnt this year
2 years ago, we entered SCH with a hope for gold and after we played, we smiled and we expected smething even more, it ended up in disappointment and tears
2 years later, today, we entered SCH with a hope for something bigger and after they played, there was no smiles but frowns and sighs of disappointment. but we still held on faith and believed that it may still happen. we truly believe. yet it ended in more disappointments and regrets, and speechless too.
i guess we were careless, we forgot that SCH isnt our own co room.
but nontheless, hahahahhaha my recorder managed to capture your feelings and stuffs u guys did very well in that recording, but somehow its different from what we heard in the concert hall itself, we were kinda "men" i guess. but heck, cause its over and th results are finalised. and theres nothing we can do either.
i am still very proud of my juniors alrights
<3 LOVE

" we just forgot that SCH isnt our own CO rooom "

my dears, and tzw especially, you guys didnt fail :D
remember the love and friendship ?
and how i wached u guys improve, erhus cellos and tby perc and of course woodwind.
really. makes me feel so so proud and when i listen t that recording i recorded today, it was the hardwork i hear and that passion.
I LOVE CCHMSCO ^^

right, started the day by waking up late as usual.
spent like 20bucks on cab. rushed t sch t listen to cchmsco again
thn had brunch with ly thn fred chingkee tiffy kl came :D
talked t th juniors and we headed t SCH in zls's car
reached there was feeeeling so damn nervous, as if i'm th one participating
in school when i was talking t ly, we started breaking down already omg emo.
but not really serious.
thn when they announced Orchestra 31,chungchenghighschool(main) chinese orchestra
we clapped our loudest ! was really nervous yet you know gotta have tht faith
so i prayed so hard, and they started playing.
oh before that, wtf, THEY MADE THEM STAY ON THE STAGE FOR FREAKING 5MINS+++
LIKE HELLLLLLO! urgh! seriously their system SUCKS.
shant go into th details cause what i wanna say was already typed above.
but really, you guys did well except for that carelessness i've said.
i knew they were disappointed, jamie msged me " we're so screwed, big time "
all their hard works, i know ):
okays i'm gonna skip th boring parts.....
then the results, they announced our school first.
Orchestra No. 31 CCHMSCO, GOLD.
no one clapped, well others did but none from us.
th next thing i know, i'm crying like shit already.
bcause they say hardwork pays off, MY FOOT. ha-ha got even pisser at the results and started crying SO BADLY. and i mean realllly bad
thn i stopped went down t look for them, many wre crying while others tried to be strong. went out hugged quite a number of them, sigh hugged michelle too and tht made me even sadder, and i cried so badly again.
okays enough of the cryings, my eyes are so tired now.
all i can say is tht the results are so fooooooked up. so whatever.
okays, thn we went to lps to have dinner
almost everyone went like damn cool please :D
damn funny, sweet juniors bought cake to cheeeer everyone up
sang songs there and malu-ed ourselves again.
but well, everyone was cheered up i guess ^^
stay strong juniors, 2009, CCHMSC WILL BE BACK AGAIN AND I'LL BE BACK TOO.
ahh so old D: ! hahahha oh wells :P
went home with joeltan and zp! listened to or jkdlf and qbmy all the way.
IT ROCKS ^^ SERIOUSLY.
alright, LOVE YOU GUYS..
<3

chungcheng's a pretty place, love my schoool <3

LOOK ITS US OMG PLEASE IGNORE MY SUPER-AC-FACE-PLEASE i was sec 3 THEN.
how time flies, it was taken after our last SYF, 210405 at BK.
remember? hahahhaha omgosh i changed alot i think.
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HELLO GOT THIS SERIOUS URGE TO CLOSE DOWN THIS BLOG.
SHOULD I?
dont worry, im still a happy girl, just been thinking alot again.
^^ will decide whether t close this rubbish blog of mine tmr.
goood night & bye!

just finish watching 9girls and a ghost min ru lent t me :D
damn nice and edison is like so hot please. OMG
love the part when he took her hand and ran with her. OMG SWEETNESS
but hello, its just a movie, not as if it will happen for real, YEA YEA in my dreams

& omg, i think i (FITB) you i dont even realise how deep it was
until i tried to get outta it but i cant, well still tryng to.
i'm feel so damn retarded, yes like patrick .
but whenever i feel like tht, i'm always reminded or haunted by the fact of how 'lucky' i am. i wish i was never lucky if it meant going deeeper, which kinda sucks at this moment cause i dont know what im' thinking and gosh, typing rubbish. i wish i was th only one reading this, but i know yoooooooooooooou read this too, this is gettig dumb. booooooo/
anws got this quote from somewhere

" i love you, more than yesterday less than tomorrow " sweeeeeeet.

omg i'm not gonna have sugarush in th middle of th night. NOOOOOOOOOO
sigh i dont think anyone's gonna understand how i feeeel like now
i'll prolly be scolded for thinking rubbish and laughed at for being stupid
i realise i -FITB- you more each time, and i know i'm gonna regret saying this but i feeel like walking away even though u have no idea how much 'happiness' it brought me and stuffs like that. because -FITB-'s sucha tiring thing, you need 2 hands t clap isnt it?
sorry tht i'm feeling this way, t those who even bother t read this.
still motivated by it though. weird huh.
tsk tsk, i like things simple, but life's complicated, and i realise i am complicated too D: BOOOO!

-again thank you blogspot for leting me rant
too lazy to write in my diary, gosh. ahh! i need t write in there.
hehe <3 gotta wake up like 645am tmr! reach cchms by 8 :D
meeting ly at sch, wheeee ! juniors are sleeping now i hope =D
lots of seniors will be going back ^^ yays happy

Monday, April 02, 2007

CCHMSCO; MUSIC OF TOGETHERNESS <3
guess what i'm listening to now? its your jkdlf !
i hear improvements, you guys have a little faith in yourself
we(seniors) belived in you once on 180606 and now we're gonna continue believing so believe in yourself and show them some professionalism.
creating our own miracles tmr,yays <3
cant say i'm not worried. I AM-
when i stepped into the concert hall tday, i was reminded by what happened 2 years ago, that unfulfilled dream. hehe (FYI, if youre reading this now, i'm gonna smack you~ tsk tsk! bcause u guys sld be sleeeeeeeeping already! )
oh yea, alll the best, and let the music of togethernesss not only heard but felt with the heart too. DEAR JUNIORS, dont be afraid, especially jamie and estelli! silly girls, i know u guys can do it
-beloved plucked strings
-woooooodwind
-bowedstrings
-percussssssssion!
CCHMSO! & i'll pray tonight <3 LOVE U ALL, SLEEP TIGHT AND SEE U GUYS TMR IN TH MORNING! <333333!
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yq!
stop thinking of rubbish for the moment, ther are more important stuffs for u to worry about. and thats not part of it.
so retarded, i dont know whats happening now...
HAHA it feeeeels weird. oh man, dont know why m i so bothered by this thing tt
seemed so insignificant to you but means so much to me.
its weird how the same thing can have a dffrent impact on differnt people.
perspective i guesss . hahaha

OH WELLS :D

hehe watched syf with them today plus wanhua ^^ min ru and siewting!

oh oh! the barker guys, did i mention tht jake looks handsome on stage? and nick loooks super cute too. sorry ivan couldnt see u from my side. u were blocked by jake. haha :D

ps/ dont remind me of how spastic i look D: i know i know. HAA HAA

hello :D watched SYF today, WHOLE DAY.
sat and listened to alot of rubbish, the standard wasnt very high
i shant say much. but anyone starts spamming my blog or smthing
okays, was pissed by some girls today, shant say which schoool cause its a really sensitive issue. but its a girls school and they're from geco. HAHA
damn stupid and childsh so i replied " whatever " right in their faces . dont know if they heard it but i dont really care. hahaa
quite disappointed with the results today. alot of schools deproved ALOT
but cat high was really good , in my opinion la. CONGRATS WLS! DEREK! :D
yays, tmr will be a better day, gogogo juniors!
results
GWH
- dunmanhigh
- catholic high
GOLD
-ACS(barker)
-anglican
-bedoksouth
-zhonghua
-ngeeann
-mayflower
SILVER
-sengkang
-manjusri
-ahmad ibrahim
-nan chiau
BRONZE
-changkat changi
-balestier hill
-greendale
-serangoon
-holy innocence
-teckwhye
-eastview
-broadrick

^^ update again ltr.. DAMN BUSY NOW.
hehe talking t dear juniors and doing stuffs .
<3

haiyo, dear me, why is it that whenever you're alone you'll start thinking nonsense?
and these nonsense-sss are making you emo again. haha realised tht i'm always emo at this hour. gosh- thank god its almost bed time soon. hahaha
being eeeeeeeeeeemo isnt a goooood thing y`know.
wish i knew some spells or smthing. thn i promise i'll make my friends and me happier :D yea, ME.
you know what dear blogspot, haha( trying t pretend tht neither of u exists )
why is it so that the same person can give you happiness yet at th same time, make you feeel so lost, not knowing wht t do . weird- anw told u tht my thoughts are running wild. again. HAHA
pffts, i'll be ok i think just tht this kinda sucks big time sometimes though

:D yea i know- bye&gooodnight

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