jenny taught me the importance of being genuine,
and sometimes i doubt myself, like am i really that oh-so-great friend?
sometimes its better to be frank with everyone instead of putting on a facade.
i've said and i'll say it again, that i have never hated anyone.
well just dont like alot. hmmmmmm yea and its only afew.
and sometimes, you'll feel hurt when you treated them genuinely and in return they doubted this friendship. to be honest, it never once crossed my mind tht i was using you, but if i really instilled tht kinda impression on you, i'm really sorry.
& i really really treasure this friendship alot.
then, i realised what a lousy 'friend' i was.
i feel so crushed. like we're soaring so high up in the sky and then a lightning strikes and slammed us onto the hard concrete.
yet i hope this hasnt afffected the friendship. bcause i truly and genuinely treasured everything tht we shared and thats prolly th reason why i told you everything, the trust? yep.
blahs, this is making me emo. haha and you know who you are.
nah not blaming you or whatsoever :D bcause you're still my REALLY good GOOOD friend. and i never want you to be hurt .
& i dont know myself if i have changed, but i know i'm still me
and i know tht i still love my friends alot.
really&truly -

p/s: one of the serious-est post i ever posted, bcause i find th need to clarify something. hahahaa and i still love you ! yes you! u know who you are ^^
p/p/s: i know it was post tht was posted quite long ago, but you know me, i dont like these kinda stuffs because it makes everyone's life miserable and tiring to be putting on a facade everytime.


love, me