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Saturday, January 20, 2007

i feel stupid thinking about rubbish D:
right rubbish, but i need to vent this out cause whenever i keep it inside i'll feel oasbgbaigsandkn
and there's no one i can talk to about this, so i cant even blog about it.
but i'm whining here about how irritated i am by myself.
i got into this myself la, how dumb i dont even know since when
- i dont think u guys know what i'm talking about la but i'm just talking rubbish for me to know and for you guys to ignore-
why is it so hard to ignore, why is it so hard to forget, why is it so hard not to love?
bet you guys are laughing at how silly i am to fall into this deep pool of rubbish
i knew it wasn't even right in the first place, cause its totally impossible
but its so hard, you know i've tried and it failed when...
hmmmmm time flies, and its gonna be like a year since.
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish
argh i shouldnt be thinking of this rubbish

D: i need to be preoccupied by some things so that i can stop thinking
until i get out of this rubbish, i'll be struggling
it seemed wrong, sure yea, it wasnt even right in the first place
its not right, its not right, its not right
so yiqing please stop thinking about nonsensical stuffs now!
studies ought to be your priority
music ought to be your love
focus on what's happening now and not whats GONNA happen in the future at this moment
cause you know its not gonna help
yiqing you should learn that this will never happen
so wake up from this sweet little dream of yours cause you're living in REALITY not your cute fantasy
but what's reality, are you sure this is even th reality
are you sure this is the truth?
what if reality isnt reality
and what we see as the truth isnt the truth
infact truths are just assumptions made to believe.
i dont know myself, i feel so sanfoisagha now
all these feelings, i hope it will go away soon shoooo!
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY
PLEASE GO AWAY PLEASE GO AWAY

i can only do so in silence, perhaps only in silence can i seek solace.
in a dilema now.
until then, tell me how not to love.
or perhaps, love in another way. i dont know

haha, so rubbish, right bye