i didn't know it'd be so hard
thank you thank you thank you :D
woke up early in the morning to practice, its the BIG day
recieved a msg from xueqi saying something "bad" happened to jrmy when he was performing
was quite worried, but had total faith ! prayed for him and stuffs, thank god ! the prayers workd
rushed to esplanade and met sam xueqi etc. for the results
i could still vividly remember that scene when they announced jeremy's name
SAM RACHEL AND XUEQI were BOUNCING OFF THEIR SEATS, sam screamed
ULTRA MALU-ED haha, then they ran all the way to cookie shop and told him the good news
i was standing afar, then heard the SCREAMS => i was happy for jeremy
HUIRONG too! :D aww so proud of my junior!
then it was my turn, i had no confidence at all, morale was super low
i just want it to be over and done with
when i was at backstage, I WANTED SOOOO MUCH TO WITHDRAW, but i thought again, i will be disappointing alot of people, my teacher my friends who came down to support me
when it was my turn, i just told myself, this is it yiqing, just do whatever you can and leave the rest to god.
i guess 1st piece was alright (abit too long)
2nd piece was CRAP SHIT ! played the wrong tempo, played wrong chords. got cut halfway through the kuai ban. i was damn scared. but i just bow and left the stage- traumatized
was VERY SADDENED really felt like crying. i walked away silently
then xueqi called saying she's already outside . didnt wanna see anyone cause i was really feeling like jasbfsaghoas! i knew i was about to cry any moment, i didn't wanna go back to the recital studio to listen to the results. so they followed me to the cookie shop =>
ROCKY ROAD CHEERED ME UP !
results was announced and i got 3rd . mixed emotions, sld i be happy that i got 3rd or sad that i didn't get 1/2nd? did some thinking i thought that i should be happy
because i didn't lose anything, instead i gained.
i managed to overcome my stage fright ! => so happy for myself !
my yin se improved
my tai feng improved
at least people can feel my music now :D
so i didn't lose, in fact i won!
i'm gonna practice even harder and continue improving until the next competition
i can do it, so xueqi ! you can too alright, u just have to have this faith in yourself
after that went out with sam xueqi jeremy nicholas jake ivan. talked at starbucks
they were sooo mean ! especially samuel wong!
had fun gossiping and talking about some stuffs :D
then went over to marina to meet chunyang and derek , played arcade and had dinner
i won derek in daytona, HAHA !
went for GECO all the way until 10+++ i was SO tired !

behind this brave front lies a lie-
this weird feeling that i have whenever i see you
i chose to ignore, because ..... yep
it's better this way